Just a girl

I just want to hold you. I love you and i hate it took this for me to realize we were both hurting. I hope ill have you again one day soon

My stomach hurts so much i dont sleep I dont sleep well without you either All i want is us again The kitties keep pacing around wondering where you are Brother came down to bring me gravol and pepto and they thought it was you and ran to the door so fast it broke my heart Please come back you are everything i want in life I do feel like we are meant to be And not because of some stupid reasons Because you make me genuinely happy and ive never been sick of you

I want you here, i miss your smile.

Im sorry its just killing me not to talk to you its only been a few days and i miss your stupid handsome face and your voice and your goodbye morning kisses and just holding you. I miss that damn groaning noise you make when you sleep and the sound of the door opening when your home from work. I miss hearing you running around with lilo. I would do anything just to see you right now and idk how your not feeling the same way. Its breaking me down slowly. I just miss you so much. But i really do need to grow and be more dependent and im sorry for how much i put on you, and how i got mad at you for it, It was not fair to you. I need time to adjust to being my own person still i guess. I want to start over with you, i want to go on a first date with you again, i still get butterflies when i think of you. I want to try again but from a better place for both of us, i dont just want to give up on something we both had fought for. I miss you, i miss us.

I got fucking drunk to stop the pain but the hangover made me miss you more Im so angry that you get all of our friends out of this You get to go out and party and i have no one here Fuck you for breaking your promise again All i want is to talk to you I cant even get off without thinking of you 4 times in a row I saw lights pull in the drive way and i thought it was you Me and the kitties just fucking miss you Pretty sure i gave myself a stomach ulcer and need to see a doctor but i can hardly stand for more then 10 mins without riving in pain And the only person i want to take me to the doctor is you I want you to hold my hand or rub my tummy to help

I made a pillow you next to me in bed because I'm scared to sleep alone The cats wouldn't stop fussing because they are probably wondering where you are Lilo didn't even want to come to bed, and my cries and yelling scares her sometimes Its really lonely without you here I got so drunk in hopes the pain would stop But honestly it made it worse and i sobbed into your pillow