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scratch me tat

scrat

rat

rat me tat

catch

cat

scr atch met at

dont be too str8

cant be too str8

not realistic m8

scratch 8 again

beat 8

slap 8

maim 8

dig into 8

dig 8

scalpel

digdigdig

packpackpackpackpack

pack 8 in

indian ink

blood

piss

christ

your face m8

wot happened to 8

im tha bomb

i bomb 8

lyfe

udah lama ga liat adib

tiba² nongol dari taman langsat

pake hickory jumpsuit, kalung amekaji

hypebeast 2009

yang paling ngagetin bukan kumis tipisnya

kayak bintang filem classic porno 80an

bayangin roy marten di pornhub

tapi mukanya

tirus banget

kayak keseringan mabok cocktail kratom campur ozempic

served in es cekek, tolong bu dokter, banyakin esnya

muka resesi

eh bukan

muka in this economy

bukan

muka EFISIENSI

nah iya

mbak anya juga nih

efisiensi banget nih

tapi bukan mounjaro bro

makan warteg aja pagi siang sore

terlalu misqueen buat pagi sore

tapi selalu ada silver lining

jadi bisa rutin bikin MRT MUG

selfie selfie

serving face

face EFISIENSI

aldi abis potram

di-skin kiri kanan

ya mosok kiri doang

dia bukan gang kabel

dia terjebak dalam raga man

kemeja aloha biru pupus favorit dia kegedean

badannya pun efisiensi?

tapi pas dia menggaruk jerawat

emang keliatan

di kiri kanan bibir merah crimsonnya

pipi pipi menyusut seperti balon kempes

akika ya

muka EFISIENSI

sementara aku pake kaos brutglam ukuran 3

di badan ukuran 1

sempet khawatir

do i have cancer? why am i losing so much weight? so fast?

tapi terus nyadar

kulkas sekarang sering kosong

telor aja diirit²

yang kesisa cuma botol² sambal cakalang hadiah dari adi

malem minum jus kode

di kepala alesan ah lebih sehat juga kan, nggak pake gula, kalau lagi ada lebih pake chia pudding

what is this pain on my left shoulder?

ke sinshe kok gak sembuh²

mungkin karena bayar seikhlasnya

kemarin rekaman vlog #guebarutahu sama uga

baru tahu juga

keriput di leher udah lebih keliatan

kata bita muka gue pucet kayak orang sakit

muka EFISIENSI

cuma adit yang beda sendiri

beda kali ya aer di bogor

selamet ya dit buku lo

sori kemarin lupa follow up mau COD

padahal emang ga ada duit aja

malu

maksain beli buku refaat dicicil 3x

ambil naik commuter line ke pondok ranji

gue peluk adit

bicep, tricep, deltoid of steel!?!

never miss an arm day!

kayak arnie di pumping iron

pengen jadi kayak adit

giving bodyodyody

di tengah² lautan

agak budek

third eye buta

bisa gak ngeliat kebahagiaan

matahari multimedia nusantara

emas

all black air force 1 bocel²

aspal di atas rel

ikutin aja

tampilkan QR code

serving face face face

tens tens tens across peron 2

waspada celah

suatu sore yang emas juga

terjebak di bilik telpon umum

+62818187377 will you accept a collect call

dari perasaan bersalah?

tapi tidak sore ini

kita nggak jadi ke rspi

malah transit di pondok ranji

menyusuri haji toran

bocil² menyeberang

menendang bola plastik

terbang menutup awan

menyeberang lagi ke tepi rel

melambaikan tangan kepada lin rangkasbitung

bisa nggak sih ke rumah matisuri naik lin ini?

kenapa lin bukan rute?

apakah adib arkan masih memikirkan hal² seperti ini?

dua kursi keramas ngeropos

di sebelah warung madura

babe warlok jagain sambil main²in dentur

siapa mau ikut kursus kilat baca quran buat lansia 70+

7-8 jam dijamin lancar

posternya gede kuning nempel di pohon mangga

siapa yang bisa ngejamin?

nggak ada yang bisa jamin

topi keith lo bue gue cuma bikin saltum

kayak sdd lagi whatever is the opposite of slumming it

di bsd

tapi fun, ga perlu slip slop slap,

ga perlu pake izipizi

kenyataan jadi keliatan lebih easy peasy

itu kan plesetannya

aku suka haji toran

giving 90s jakarta

sebelum google maps,

sebelum gentrifikasi,

sebelum post santa

padahal lagi menuju bistro alanda kariza

semacam taco local yang lagi² mana lokalnya

quesadilla + temulawak = 100rb++

math no longer mathing in this economy

math never mathing ever

what economy? tanya sendal yeezy kw

di lantai commuter line

eh lin komuter

katya wore the same pair di the bald and the beautiful

tau nggak sih lin rangkas kalau di peta ternyata warnanya ijo

kayak district line pan di andahgroun

pondok ranji kalo di underground kayak mile end kali ya

baru keluar dari peradaban whitechapel-kebayoran

ctarrr

masih juga berjalan

di bawah matahari sore

mind the gap

mind = the gap

jadi pengen baca soal equinox di wikipedia

lagi ada badai matahari nggak sih di bosscha

sinshe punya temen di sana

perlu tahu banget kenapa semua orang kayak lagi gila

semoga emang lagi waktunya aja

selalu lupa strip di nama byung-chul han

posisinya di mana

kayaknya bener

burnout society, nggak ada yang bener

quesadillanya b aja

pesen temulawak nanas dikasih yang mangga

tapi emang gitu nasib di sini

ngarep apa dapetnya apa

masih untung bisa ngarep dan pesen² seenak udel

di gaza anak² udah brenti penasaran

brenti ngarep

pesen² mereka kepada dunia ga ada yang dengerin

i'd totally lose it if they get renad

lo masih untung bro!

katanya pada tolong bungkusin dong mbak

buat anak di rumah

yang terakhir ini sebenernya nggak diucapin

takut riya, atau malu ternyata kismin

udah jam 15.03

harusnya tokonya udah buka

mau pickup buku refaat

cicil 3x kayak orang bener aja

let it be a sale

after babel, there's yellowface

nymphia wind jadi ratu drag race

kemenangan yang politis, kata plane jane

dan shalahuddin siregar, the documentary filmmaker

apa bedanya coconut dan banana

dan kaktus

tiga²nya dalemnya wypipo

NPBFAGRPDRASMRVOC

tapi ga ada yang ngalahin

the power of random convo

makasih sarah,

emang enak ngobrol tanpa gol

ini bukan pertanyaan

kata dere kipas memutar angin panas

tapi nggak tahu juga

dicampur hembus ac daikin inverter

serving svalbard

sambil ngobrol soal

kang young-sook

in janet hong we trust!

eh ini nama penerbitnya transit,

sama

you actually ate that bintaro sektor 2

keluar² langit udah 🩷

seorang panlok milf menggandeng anak perempuan kecilnya ke kafe seberang jalan

bucket hats (no longer du jour in shanghai, kata teman di story pagi ini), barefoot sandals, the whole werks

dream suburbia

sesak di dada

wasn't just in my head

kembali menyusuri haji toran

kali ini uphill

suara ngaji di atmosfir

babe makin hot mainin dentur

awas jatoh, be!

apa yang sedang dia tunggu

siapa yang pertama kali ngedesain kursi taman plastik pake armrest

deserves a nobel

open QR code again

looks like you're not connected

hari gini siapa yang connected bambang

kembali mewaspadai celah di pondok ranji

bapakku dulu beli rumah di jurang mangu

tapi mamaku nggak mau diajak pindah ke jurang

rumahnya ditinggalin gitu aja

padahal udah lunas

sekarang aku highkey pengen tahu

di mana tu rumah

apa masih ada

apa belum ancur, kayaknya udah deh

apa masih bisa dijual buat bayar anak kuliah

di dkv umn,

biar bisa pulang kuliah

dari rawa buntu juga

pake air force 1

red bed is best

papam non habemus

but the floor is cool

from the stream under

john, jos, seamus could hear em

swimming in the trees

hurricaneing in the leaves

schattenfrohing in the sheets

babyyy

breakout rooms were wack

there was kimmy j, squinting k-sun prismatized thru 2122 windows

andy j poetry from a body shaped like a question mark periodt. babyyy

i feel safe in the wool-lined safe spaces for ke' su

still not enuf for some fellow

maybe the coffee aint 360

secret conclave-y reasons attract most attenshun

connexions made thru rca connectors

maar bidi pookiiieee

human looking pookiiiiieee

a luxury we must pookiiiiiieee

everybody's killing it their fave pokémon

my pocket operatah transmogrified pocket monstah

jedag jedug jedag jedug so tired of hearing it in academiah

i'm only a pengamat memek, don't mind me

don't even have a second account

am a samedi adi, nothing to look forward to dimanche, maybe a heart-shaped bingka cake, slightly pear-shaped from exertions

damn u grammarceptions

the floor cool on my bum

my dry bones ice cream short sleeve

high noon summer in iruña

my own jedag jedug syro

people clap in silence, bosco

slip in a willow pill under your pillow

te deum ex ice machina

i too choose ivy winters

Touching you, God, you're touching me, oh behind the steering wheel

in the W E R K room

this is our W R E K room

poetry incinerated in slow cinema of your courtyard

Dacca rain elbows into our POC present

shooo nemesis

wake that twinings up

i don't think this can continue

if you can't learn to understand to renew u to shampoo u

o lemon cui

pisang, nanas, roti, sabun mandi, shampoo dove serum shampoo perawatan rambu rontok, shampoo clear lemon bersih dan segar, teh

am i whining and dining me

i've aged like a weak-chinned miranda otto

Thank you, Margaret, for the generous introduction, it's been a long time

The last time I've seen you was a pandemic ago

Did you hear how Spain went totally Station Eleven?

at the DQ

just wanna undumb the brain, man

parochialism breeds kerokan endnotes

amok, amuk, kamu

FANTASTIC

on a slightly more somber note

the balcony needs trimming, a new roof costs an arm and a leg, willam's thigh-high louboutin boots

i said boots

rinso matic bukaan depan, nggak ada yang bukaan belakang

all these things: not moving

i really like it, so much layer, that intelligent people like Kamau

kak, mau

fe real fe real

could be, there's a character, stay with the story, come back to the character

it's really good, i'm curious, these are not everyday tumblr stories

i am also a poet you know, miss america

what are stories like that? to something

even if the priest slaps the crying baby, LALULAUT! LALULAUT!

something wrong there but everybody laughed

whatsherface just came back from White Lotus

Bruno wears a black armband for Jiggles, Sharon's new Jiggles hasn't got time to go grey or peel like a Greek armada

Draft saved!

i didn't give a shit when my Specialized got stolen

That's why I'm no Ocean

But I understand his desperation

to be the dieworkwear of diasporic world poetry

Kamau save me

frustrating sure i know

but why do things have to be interesting and good in that half-abstract cute way

sent you an epub of the cute on WhatsApp

thank you, OOM

it's just a story you know

that eats itself

Go ahead, put anything

emh, it's good life at the Bay

don't think they'll ever feel the need to put a gun to anyone's head

The windows shaking from the force of tiny fists

Ocean, you need to empty yourself

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Kick the bucket in the halocline

plisdeh

do not add tags, do not collect too hondred daosand dolls

For Everyone, Post now

i was going for a drive to orange for hannah's wedding

she was getting married to a nice french dude or is that a garçon with sad eyes

one day i was riding in the action bus with them and for the whole trip he put his sad head on her shoulder

meanwhile claire was digging into my nails absentmindedly trying to clean them

that hurt

we were traveling in chloe's old subaru sedan. chloe was from orange

it was during a pit stop at a petrol station that i realised i didn't bring my good shoes that i was supposed to wear for the wedding

they were cream close-toed faux leather mandals that i didn't know were faux and i got them custom-made at one of the (back then) trendy jamet cobblers at perbanas

i was kinda glad i forgot them i started to think they looked shit. like shithousery fuckety fuck fuck unquiet not even luxury

it was during another pit stop this time at a lookout that i realised i also forgot my beatles-style four-buttoned prada suit

i opened the trunk and it wasn't there

it might've been subconscious but how was it SUBconscious when it was so fucking obvious

that i was sabotaging this trip subconsciously deliberately

we had a late lunch at chloe's parents' house and i borrowed my wedding outfit from the dad

they fit perfectly except now in a white safari shirt i looked like a white lotus dick

the only thing i had that was mine was a levi's dark navy twill pants that at a glance passed for a formal-ish chino because the fabric was kinda shiny

we stayed in errol's, hannah's dad's house on a hill in orange with a view of a single jacaranda tree we could see from our bedroom window

the house was all blonde wood which made it feel both unfinished and welcoming

errol was a late-blooming artist who spent most of his life working at the arnott's factory in orange

hannah was also an artist, went to the art school in canberra, and had had a group show at a tiny gallery in surry hills that i wanted to see but claire, her cousin, my girlfriend then, didn't

i went to see it one afternoon making sure no one else was there

she did pretty things with onion paper, tiny fragile things that resembled colonies or crumpled shredded skin

there was also an incompleteness to her works that was charming and welcoming

i wonder if she ever made it in the art world

after the beautiful outdoor wedding under a grey sky, me shivering in the cold sans jacket, lloyd, claire's dad got us to move out of the wooden house and camped out in the bush not too far away, i think it was still in errol's property

he even set up a portable shower, a massive army green canvas water tank that he hung off a thick eucalyptus tree branch, with a shower head at the bottom

i thought of telling him a mandi would be much easier to set up and much more water-efficient but i restrained myself

that happened later

i don't know to this day why we had to sleep in a cold tent when we could've stayed in the charming blonde wooden house

i don't think i even fucked claire in the tent

lloyd made good eggs for breakfast, so there was that

later on i wrote a poem about a tree, a pond, no ducks, and winter for my first collection of poems and called it orange

have you seen sidewalks of london?

nuttin u say, do, think is ever kejauhan

u can only walk as far as yr heart can contain

u will walk as far as yr heart can contain

u shd

do not feel invalidated, gaslighted, ingrid

u must have belief in yrself

in yr own thoughts

the way they consume yr body, such is the way the world shd be consumed by them

it doesn't always happen

but u must retain that belief

the world of the ideals is unattainable

it was a dank arvo at a taco local in kebayoran baru when i met d, t, and a for a catch-up after yonks

i rode my salted egg blue vespa lx that i christened tante sophie after the antiheroine of e. breton de nijs's faded portraits to the meet-up

it was when new vespa matics weren't as common as they are now

but i was living in deep ciledug, across the road from where the old pasar was, so it didn't really matter that i had a shiny new vespa i was still a hillbilly

i was all inspired on fire to spill the tea about my depression what i really felt about this city after seeing the jak the doco about persija jakarta the football club their rabid fans

like the jaks i felt like i had no control over the city in fact the whole concrete edifice was closing in on me crushing me no jalan tikus left to escape its crush-y anvil

d was sympathetic, t was bemused, a was restless, frustrated, too stupid to understand the fineries of whingery

i got so worked up i nearly cried couldn't hear anything around me anymore the world was just a loud ringing in my ears sometimes an explosive deep hum coming from inside of me

i decided to leave after finally catching up to the fact things had got AWKWARD no one really knew what to say or do i was devil's advocating every retort

when i was making my way to the parking lot putting on my black leather gloves with the pretty white stripes that i bought at the deus hq on parramatta rd

aint gunna wérk henny

sd helen launch a thousand more chips

throw everythin but the proverbial

& a literal phalanx of mates

[smokin window emoji]

& a hand clutching at windowsill

two-night stand turns into three

sd u tell me

aint gunna wèrk henny

bitcheth was craaazy

[death drop emoji]

but ya i prefer mindfuck than actual fuck

wërk it henny

lo mau bir lagi gak

spotlight on u

& spotlight missing u

can’t carry an orchestra across ciputat raya

saw u do it on insta

do achaians go to church

twas the old kerk in the city

udah mau tutup jadi cuman bisa makan roti

udah di dalem ya paling belakang

said that wasn’t yr real name

yr real name was wagino

one day yr dad came home and he was amatmoekrim

a man hanged in yr backyard 

[door emoji]

freshcotton eh

MIE or MIA dr martens

thought we share same fate

decolonialize now or never

but hammersmith, pigeons splattering window sills

not exactly a match for aston martin

austin friars i mean

perhaps the dragon in costa rica

tell me how much youve got in the bank?

patmonem gek ndang mangkat yen wis mendem

[door emoji]

wake up mate last station

soft rain  / /  //// // / /    /     do they weave it of willows

outsoles sank in gummy carpet

a ripple in the ocean in chch

dont wanna sleep it thru in pillowed comfort

insoles still drying near the radiator

the sheet pebbly

the freezing cold only heated in patches

we spent the whole day in the tower

we saw the ghosts of the two princes jk

[lock emoji]

Wanneer wij samen zijn

not gonna happen

its in the printers 

no the translator died

the linguistic ambience AWOL

AWOKWOKWOKWOK

cant think up weird stuff 

imagination the size of lemon drops

eerieology

there is no writer alive more incisive and hilarious

there is no writer, dead inside

the infinite jest is that ceci est une fellation

the supposedly fun thing i’ll never do again and again

you joke, you say you saw seydoux seydoux sputnik at la flèche d’or

you spend too much time in imaginary london phone boxxxes, why it gotta be all day permanent red, revlon?

you came from greece you’ve got a thirst for bondage

you dogtooth and nail!

i give up on this one, demon slayer

i give up poundfit

i give up strong nation

i give up airism, outside of society! that’s where you wanna be

have you read, U & I by U & I by john updike by nicholson baker by mikael johani?

have you heard, there’s enya in senyawa

have you seen, a john cage silence

kalau pagi aku bilas mug mug kopi

kadang udah berjamur

kalau pake susu jamurnya kayak oncom

oranye oranye toxic

nggak ada yang bantuin

tapi aku senang

merasa berguna dalam hidup

belimbing kalau busuk lama lama jadi serbuk

lo tau nggak?

kira kira 2 x 3

sekarang permukaannya dah kayak kompos

daun buah ranting bunga kalau lagi musim label le minerale

7 barang dipesan untuk satu keperluan

tinggal banyak

i'm being ironic

so are you

sore itu kolam renang

menelan harga diri lo aja ga tau

masih? tinggal dikiiit lagi

pagi itu lagi

pagi yang lift

pagi yang reuben

hand that's dealt who?

kadang jadi goyah keyakinan

completely prostrate

aku tau kok

nyadar

just wanna see how far it'll go

kemudian menyadari sudah tidak nyaman

lama sebelum akhirnya tidak tahan

bukan sih akhirnya tu kadang kadang

kayak eczema

ya kasih salep kalau cocok cocokan

you don't like me asking you if you'd like it if i do it

daripada daripada

daripada daripada daripada daripada

perlu sesuatu yang found

probably just a wrong number

bangers and pash

even then i knew the scarecrow had it in for me. the crows were never there, but they were coming.

[scanned the horizon]

i would wake up in the near-middle of the night and climb the window in our bedroom (grandmother and brother two black lumps in the dark) and stand transfixed on the window sill looking through the wooden slits on to the dirt road behind my house.

[the night bathed in silvery light]

i was waiting for the dinosaurs to come. allosauruses with their drumstick front paws. t-rexes with their clawy front paws. 

they never came.

the crows, they came. 

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