going to the library and seeing people use chatgpt to study... so sad to see so many #losers in one place

All i think about everyday is how much i just want to create and live life and help others and be with nature. But i have to think of visas. And money my parents put into this. And the sinking ship that is my home country. I cant just get up and go do whatever the fuck i want bcs my passport lets me go to any country i want or my government gives me financial support. Not all of us can afford that shit. Some people are born forced to be slaves to the system. Some are born able to explore whatever they want and them ALSO call you a lazy unambitious loser for not "doing what you want". Fuck you. Fuck this world

So much of "do what you want to do or be a loser" rhetoric that i see online is like. Only applicable if ur rich or white or both. I cant do what i want. Im not rich. I hate it so much. It puts salt on the wound

several times a day i ask myself what am i doing with my life

About time i get into german poetry