forgive me great sage, for I have fucked up

🎉🎉🎉🎉 welcome back!!! Thrilled I could pull you in because the same thing happened to me only I was trapped by nothing other than my own brain. unfortunately. good luck with your uni stuff and I hope you enjoy the Pilar fic if/when you get to it! 💜

I’ve learned lots of interesting things this year! I wouldn’t say that this specifically is the most interesting thing, but it to me is a fact that opens the door to a lot of interesting things, which is that in medieval times, sex, gender, and sexuality were not separate categories. they were all linked conceptually. the repercussions of this are staggering in terms of how sex differences (because “gender” itself wasn’t a separate thing from sex, either, right) were constructed and enforced through things like regulating clothing and sexual behavior, and how those regulations defined in turn sex differences. this is important because a) there are so, so many repercussions for understanding history in terms of how queer people and women moved through society at that time and b) the late Middle Ages and the consolidation of the church’s power and influence is the distant basis for a lot of conservative and puritanical ideas today. this is why terfs spout shit that sounds like it’s medieval, because it is! it’s based on this conservatism that dates back to the Middle Ages. and learning about history is deeply important because of things like this, because beliefs from the 1400s have very small but still tangible impacts on our lives today.

and Annie agrees. they take all the money that was Finnick’s victor’s winnings, that she received as a lump sum after the war, and they use it to pay everyone off so that they will leave Annie and her son alone. it works! but the horrible process of them going through that together, of losing her son even briefly and having to do something that drastic to get him back, ruins their relationship. neither of them are sad about it really because him being with his mom is far more important than their relationship, but something that traumatic and stressful does ruin relationships and I think it made them both realize that their priorities and visions about life, as well as their moral codes, don’t fully align and they’re better off going separate ways. it stays fun and weird between them forever though don’t worry

never be able to write…I love writing but writing does not rejuvenate me the same way reading does. I’ve been much more vigilant about making time to read books recently and it is so much better for my focus and memory and it’s just also overall very fun and fulfilling. I encourage everyone to read actual published books more often