Watch It. I Fight Back.

Sometimes I'll get really angry during the day, but then I just let it go. I'm not saying it's easy. It's never easy to let anything go. We, as humans, have grown to hold onto things; like movie tickets, bracelets, memories, grudges, and e.t.c. We are dedicated to not let go. The same goes for being angry. Someone or something else makes you angry, and naturally, you hold onto that anger, even if it's over something stupid. This is because 1.) it just happened 2.) you're holding onto the moment. It's hard to let go of that anger because that's not what we were taught. But I promise if you take a really deep breath, tell yourself "just get through ten more minutes"

Can't have my heart. Can't have my mind. Can't have my soul because there's none left behind. You can try and take my feelings, but those are already dead inside. Try and tear down my beauty, oh baby just try. However, you'll sadly find, I'm to strong to destroy and I won't take your shit this time. Not sorry to disappoint, but it's my life.

It's hard being someone everyone leans on because I don't have anyone I can go to myself. Yeah everyone says I can go to them but when I even start to open up all they ever do is talk over me and by the end of he day I'm still the one being leaned on. I know they don't mean any harm, but I just need someone to listen for once instead of opening their mouth to speak. I just need that. I need someone to say "it's not okay, but I'm here with you so it'll be okay when you make it through and we go out for some cheesecake" like I just need someone so I know I'm not alone. I'm tired of being the only one to comfort when I feel insecure in this life as well. I'm tired of everyone telling me my problems don't beat theirs like it's a contest, because it's not. I'm still facing junk in life too, and it's difficult for me to want to wake up everyday just the same.

I like to think I’ve grown and changed with time, but I guess I’m still the same dumb bitch I am...... I’m tired of making friends especially when they only get annoyed with my sporadic personality and move on. Wish I could fucking be enough and just what’s needed for once