I'm only human, I've got a skeleton in me.

I don’t know if you’re okay, so I don’t sleep.

Having you here, it was having my own cloud of heaven.

Nimbus stratus.

I’ve cried and cried.. my heart burns. My actual chest space, is aching.

You loved me, you consumed me, you cared about me. I loved you, I yearn for you, and I’ve always cared.

I knew I wasn’t good for you, but I had hoped I could be enough. Tattered wings, a crown of thorns, held up my my horns.

I started to feel like I could get there. Like the horns were shrinking, bit by bit.

Without you here, I’m afraid I’ll go back to what’s comfortable. Pain. Suffering.

I told you today, that I felt backed into a corner. Like I’m about to lose myself again..

I’m not that deep, I’m not there.

I could get there, I’m sure.

But we left off, the worst we had. We left each other with hope, sealed with a kiss.

I blew my life up.

You work and work and work until you literally can’t sleep with sedation.

Have to diminish your food intake because you can’t afford to eat.

Pains in your chest that you can’t describe, strains on your back from playing Atlas.

Can’t stop. Don’t stop. Can’t ask for help. Don’t ask for help.

The safer option would've been to forget you, give you a real chance to forget me.

The safer option should've been me convincing myself there are "other fish in the sea". But they wouldn't have been my mermaid.

Your eyes settle the constant ongoing battle between my chest and head.

Your heart makes me believe in fairy tales, and that maybe I've been deserving of love after all. Deserving of your love.

My little nerd, my pure Hufflepuff that believes I can be saved. Loving a Slytherin who spent decades believing I couldn't be.

You see potential, where I see a liability. You trust in hope, while I always trusted my armor.

You have always loved me for me, and never asked me to change myself. You've only ever asked me, to let you love me.

You know my mind, you know my heart, you know my soul, you know my body.

My mind keeps you up there, rent free. My heart keeps you as deep as a brand. My souls is forever linked to yours. My body only trusts you, as you always leave it trembling.

Edmund Spenser said the "other fish in the sea" quote. Meaning, there's billions of souls on this floating rock.. as love is some kind of numbers game.

For us, that couldn't be farther from the truth.

Once I met you, all options were second place to you.

No one loves me like you do. No one can be both, sexy and soft like you. No one has a scream tank laugh like you do. No one else could be my favorite notification, my home, my lover, my person.

The Sorting Hat could sort us a thousand times over, we could be kidnapped by Borgs, and captured by Mandolorians.. I'd still end up exactly where I was meant to be, being loved by a girl who has taught me that love isn't choosing the easiest future.

I posted about choosing you, and it wasn't fair of me to not use my words. Lemme give it a whirl.

I have always chosen you, in my heart. I have always known it was you.

When asked, if you were the "safe choice", I couldn't quite form words the words.

Nothing has been safe about this decision, as the level of love you give always terrified me.

Loving so deeply. Loving so passionately. Loving so unapologettically.

I am choosing this, not as a sure thing, not as the safe option, but because you are my only option.

My subconsious has always known its you, it knew it was you before my brain and heart knew.

Your laugh gives me life, and makes everything in the world seem better.

Your kindness and heart of platinum has always been worn on your sleeve, and I will always protect it. I want to earn my place beside you, I want to prove worthy of your hand.

I choose your lips, and mouth.. and the total hold it has on me. The way our mouths move, it's like our own little secret, one that we only have the key to.

I choose our slight differences, and our similar loves. I'll defend Star Wars in 12 parsecs, and you'll always say Star Trek boldly goes where Han never could.

You've always been the logical choice, the right choice, and the only choice. We are inevitable, like you said.

Choosing you is simple, because choosing you is the only path to peace.

My favorite quote, has always been: "If you want peace, prepare for war." It's from the Punisher.

I want peace, and I'm ready to fight for you. To fight for us. You are who I want to wake up to. You are who I want to go to bed with every night. You're the only one I want to kiss, and make love to, the only one to make me feral.

I stayed up late to write, and for some reason the words aren't flowing as easily as I hoped, so bear with me.

Piecing words aren't as easy for as they are for you, so I apologize if this sounds like I'm babbling.

Sleep has been evading me, lately.. even more than usual. I find myself staying up worrying about you, and staying up in case you need me..

Don't worry, I get sleep eventually.. but I always want to be around, in case you need to call.

I'm putting forth a bigger effort, and trying to prove myself to you, but also prove to myself, that I deserve you. That I'm worthy of your hand.