Ollie 🧡

I think I need to give up on posting art publicly. I’m already not posting most of my personal doodles and I think I should stop try to get attention on any other art either. What’s the reason of sitting for a several hours straight on a stupid piece of drawing no one gonna care about anyway?

Every time I fell into same trap. I draw, I feel proud and happy, so joyful I want to share this with the world, but nobody cares. In the end I’m just hurt, seeing something important for my heart just gets zero attention. This is so dumb.

I can’t create without feedback. I want to show things and be seen. I want to be recognisable. I feel like, maybe I’m talented or skilful enough to deserve attention, but every time I face harsh reality. No matter how long I post art and try to be active on socials (it’s been already 11 years since I started btw), no matter how I try to get better in art, to progress and make my drawings look better, it is not enough and never will be enough. So, probably I’m not talented. I don’t have skill. I’m just nothingburger and my art is lame.