i think people spend too much time talking about talent. not in a bitter way. just objectively.
the more i think about it, the more i think talent is mostly a story people tell themselves so they can explain why somebody else succeeded. it sounds nicer than admitting someone spent ten years doing the same kick ten thousand times. people want to think theres a reason other people can do it and they cant.
i was training earlier and i realised that my tail already knows things before i do. not in a weird way. muscle memory. but then i started thinking about how much of a person is actually conscious. we say "i decided to move" but the movement is already happening before we've finished deciding. so maybe the body learns first and the mind catches up afterwards.
which means if i just keep training enough, eventually my body will know how to be a hero before i do. which has actually probably already happened!
the difference between first-year me and now is ridiculous. i don't think i give myself enough credit for it. everyone always says i'm normal because my quirk is simple, but do you know how insanely hard it is to become competitive with someone who can create explosions or negate gravity through nothing but practice? that's not normal. that's absurd. that's proof that the human body can adapt to basically anything if you give it enough time.
and if that's true, then what else can it adapt to? i've been sketching training plans for the last few hours and i genuinely think most people are thinking too small. physically but also mentally. why do we assume there's a ceiling? every time someone says "that's impossible", all that really means is that "nobody has done it yet."
people said a tail wasn't enough for me to be a worthwhile hero or to get into UA. people say things like that all the time. they look at what's in front of them instead of what it could become. what if i trained every martial art i could find? not mastered because that's a limit too. but if i integrated everything.
imagine taking every style apart and rebuilding them into something completely new. something designed specifically around a prehensile tail. not monkey-style. not karate. not judo. something else.
actually, why has nobody done that? has somebody done that? i should look into that. i could do that. i have notebooks somewhere. hold on. this is a good idea. i think this is a really good idea. i think i might stay up tonight and start drafting a full framework.
the annoying thing is that every new thought keeps connecting to three other thoughts. i started this post talking about talent and now i'm thinking about biomechanics and evolutionary adaptation and hero education reform and limits and whatnot. i think everyone should have a tail actually. its such a balance enhancer. im wondering if all heroes would do better with tails. which is a serious question, by the way. people laugh when i ask that. it's a legitimate question.
the point is that i feel really good lately. better than good, honestly. focused. everything feels sharp. i keep making connections between things. it's like somebody cleaned a dirty window and suddenly i can see further than usual.
i wish i could explain it properly. i don't feel faster. but it's more like everything in the world feels slower. like everybody else is walking and i'm running. not in an arrogant way. maybe just a bit. but only because i'm starting to think i've underestimated myself for years. a lot of us probably have!
imagine what we'd all be capable of if we stopped treating our limits like facts.