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âYou donât love me.â
Itâs not the first time that heâs hearing that. Jongin has told him countless times, sometimes whispering, sometimes yelling, sometimes crying. It makes Sehun feel bad every time and he scrambles for explanations although Jongin should know.
Being a genie, it is in Sehunâs nature to help. Jongin is his priority, but Jongin canât fully bind him. Sehun feels like heâs going crazy whenever he spends more than a month in a place. He needs to go out, always on the search of someone who might need his help, and more often than not, he disappears for days before returning home to his waiting boyfriend.
âBut I do love you, Jongin,â Sehun whispers. This time, too, he cradles Jongin into his arms, rocking the otherâs body side to side. It hurts him to hear Jonginâs accusing tone, it hurts him to see Jonginâs tears, and it hurts him to feel Jonginâs body slumping against his, losing all strength to keep his composure. He can tell that Jongin is exhausted, and itâs all his fault - because Sehun canât make Jongin feel and understand that Jongin is always his number one priority, no matter how desperately he tries to prove it.
Jongin is, by far, the most important person in his life. It is hard to convince Jongin of that when he isnât around 24/7, but he has hoped that Jongin would understand. And Jongin did reassure him back then that he understood. Born a genie, Sehun canât help but disappear on his missions to validate his existence. If not for granting wishes and bring happiness to people who deserve it, Sehun wouldnât be living now. He is a creature that has been formed for solely that reason.
And yet, Sehun has failed the one person that he should never disappoint - Jongin, his boyfriend, the love of his life. And with every time that Jongin accuses him of not loving him back, of cheating on him because Sehun is too friendly with others, Sehun feels more and more useless.
Sehun is a genie. He should be bringing happiness, but all that he can give Jongin is sorrow, and he doesnât know how to fix it.
âIâm sorry for failing you,â is what he whispers to Jongin that night, when his lover has fallen asleep right next to him. âIâm sorry for being the reason youâre hurt. Iâm sorry for walking into your life and making you feel more miserable instead of making it better.â
He failed him horribly, and as much as Sehun tries to figure out how to solve this, he canât come up with a solution that is not drastic.
***
âYouâre such an idiot.â
Sehun can only smile at those words. Itâs a bitter smile, because Soojung is right. Sehun has been an idiot, but he is not going to continue being an idiot for longer. He might be hurting, but at least Jongin isnât anymore - not because of Sehun, that is.
Sehun returned to the genie realm that same night, begging the elders to nullify his bond with Jongin. They are divorced now, nothing binding them together, except for the feeling of love that Sehun still harbors in his heart. But Jongin shouldnât be feeling that. If his genie magic is working properly - it should, even on an immortal being with his own set of supernatural powers - then Sehun is completely erased from Jonginâs heart. Jongin wonât have to feel sad about him anymore, and now itâs only Sehun nourishing his broken heart. One side hurting is better than having both suffering, right?
âIâm fine with this,â Sehun mumbles quietly, more to convince himself than Soojung. âAt least I still get to be his guardian angel. I can still watch him from here and make sure that heâs doing okay.â
âBut what if heâs not okay? You didnât even ask him. Youâre pulling the same stunt on him twice,â Soojung murmurs, her hand on Sehunâs shoulder squeezing tightly. âWhat if he still remembers? What if he asks you to come back?â
âI seriously donât know,â Sehun replies quietly, although the answer is as clear as day. He would return to Jonginâs arms any time. Jongin just needs to call him and he would be back, because thatâs all his existence has been reduced to.
Sehun is a genie. He lives for fulfilling peopleâs wishes, but at the whisper of his name by Jonginâs lips, he would leave everything to be by Jonginâs side. Because he truly loves Jongin, only, Jongin doesnât know, because Jongin never put his faith in him. For some reason, Jongin has never called him to come back, so Sehun has never been able to prove his love. But itâs not like that could happen in the future, right? Because Sehun has erased all traces of himself from Jonginâs memory. If they ever meet, Sehun would be nothing but a stranger to Jongin.

















