Just throwing an update during this unfortunate events. Funny how I write the best at 2am about my feelings and stuff huh?

Life has been quite interesting actually. Funny how a pandemic and other factors made me come to sit down and look at myself. Being forced to be in the house made me realize a lot of good things and bad. Self realization has been very important to me. I love it and hate it. But it’s progress nonetheless.

Some days I’m happy and some days I get sad and I can honestly say I know why. I’m not use to be confined in the house all the time. All the things that made me happy was contingent on being out and doing things. Concerts and traveling was my happy place . Experiencing new things was just everything to me. Having to just be working and being in the house was enjoyable at first and then it became depressing.... I found myself for the first time actually feeling FOMO. It got to a point where I had to find a new happiness within myself and that’s been a journey on its own. Pretty tough actually. I’ll be honest and say I’m still working on it, trying to find my niche... you get me?