ItsChapps.

Through all of this I have yet learned what to do rather what not to do. 

You did more than fill my voids. You were a fire that filled me up with smoke and.You filled me with emotions as that fire ran rampant. You filled me with heated passion,pleasure and pain, excitement and fear. I hadn't felt this way in such a long time. I actually had forgotten how to feel anything, anything at all.  I was empty. 

  ...And when I kissed you goodnight, I tried to remember every inch of your lips, every moment of it because I knew you were kissing me goodbye.  Now I somberly lay here wondering how I ever able to experience nothingness and how I would ever be able to surrender my ability to feel again by giving you up. 

But I still feel you. 

" Allow me to tell you how ardently I admire you".

I think of you throughout the day unintentionally.There is something about your laugh or your smile or the way your scent lingers in my hair when I leave your house. I think about your beautiful mind, the way you smile when you get kisses on your eyes or how you always have a glass of water waiting for me.  I reluctantly admit you are the best part of my day.