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ā Ā good Ā , Ā ā Ā she Ā breathed Ā the Ā word Ā in Ā response Ā to Ā his Ā confirmation Ā , Ā it Ā wasnāt Ā always Ā important Ā to Ā her Ā that Ā cass Ā said Ā all Ā the Ā right Ā things Ā or Ā voiced Ā the Ā exact Ā same Ā desires Ā and Ā hopes Ā as Ā her Ā because Ā somehow Ā she Ā knew Ā it Ā was Ā true Ā , Ā that Ā if Ā he Ā didnāt Ā then Ā heād Ā probably Ā run Ā a Ā mile Ā or Ā get Ā all Ā freaked Ā out Ā like Ā he Ā had Ā a Ā habit Ā of Ā doing Ā . Ā she Ā really Ā did Ā think Ā it Ā was Ā good Ā enough Ā that Ā he Ā had Ā promised Ā , Ā that Ā it Ā meant Ā that Ā he Ā really Ā did Ā agree Ā that Ā heād Ā remember Ā what Ā was Ā important Ā . Ā she Ā still Ā felt Ā those Ā little Ā butterflies Ā flutter Ā their Ā wings Ā , Ā a Ā little Ā squeeze Ā in Ā her Ā heart Ā , Ā whenever Ā he Ā told Ā her Ā that Ā he Ā loved Ā her Ā in Ā return Ā or Ā in Ā general Ā . Ā it Ā seemed Ā so Ā foreign Ā but Ā so Ā perfect Ā . Ā it Ā might Ā have Ā been Ā the Ā fact Ā that Ā she Ā knew Ā how Ā difficult Ā things Ā were Ā for Ā him Ā to Ā voice Ā at Ā times Ā that Ā made Ā it Ā more Ā special Ā to Ā her Ā to Ā know Ā that Ā he Ā would Ā do Ā it Ā , Ā FOR Ā HER Ā . Ā her Ā lips Ā moved Ā against Ā his Ā as Ā his Ā hands Ā moved Ā to Ā the Ā tie Ā of Ā the Ā robe Ā sheād Ā put Ā on Ā a Ā few Ā minutes Ā earlier Ā and Ā she Ā felt Ā her Ā lips Ā curve Ā into Ā a Ā smile Ā as Ā the Ā tie Ā came Ā undone Ā causing Ā it Ā to Ā drop Ā down Ā since Ā her Ā arms Ā were Ā already Ā free Ā from Ā his Ā earlier Ā help Ā , Ā the Ā hand Ā that Ā had Ā been Ā positioned Ā over Ā the Ā material Ā of Ā his Ā clothing Ā moving Ā to Ā slip Ā under Ā his Ā shirt Ā and Ā slide Ā against Ā his Ā torso Ā instead Ā . Ā she Ā liked Ā the Ā warmth Ā , Ā the Ā feeling Ā of Ā his Ā skin Ā and Ā the Ā details Ā of Ā his Ā body Ā and Ā at Ā this Ā point Ā she Ā was Ā certain Ā that Ā she Ā could Ā probably Ā describe Ā every Ā inch Ā of Ā him Ā better Ā than Ā every Ā inch Ā of Ā herself Ā , Ā whether Ā that Ā was Ā inside Ā or Ā out Ā . Ā even Ā so Ā , Ā cass Ā always Ā seemed Ā to Ā have Ā more Ā that Ā he Ā wasnāt Ā showing Ā , Ā more Ā things Ā that Ā were Ā in Ā his Ā history Ā or Ā crushed Ā back Ā into Ā his Ā past Ā waiting Ā to Ā spring Ā out Ā and Ā that Ā made Ā cecilya Ā desperate Ā to Ā know Ā him Ā even Ā more Ā intimately Ā . Ā the Ā physical Ā aspect Ā was Ā only Ā one Ā part Ā of Ā it Ā but Ā no Ā matter Ā how Ā close Ā they Ā got Ā , Ā she Ā always Ā wanted Ā to Ā be Ā closer Ā to Ā him Ā and Ā she Ā was Ā the Ā type Ā of Ā person Ā who Ā always Ā showed Ā the Ā cards Ā in Ā her Ā deck Ā ; Ā she Ā always Ā showed Ā how Ā she Ā felt Ā , Ā what Ā she Ā wanted Ā , Ā in Ā her Ā words Ā , Ā her Ā actions Ā and Ā the Ā way Ā that Ā she Ā could Ā ALWAYS Ā make Ā other Ā people Ā feel Ā loved Ā or Ā wanted Ā . Ā at Ā times Ā it Ā had Ā been Ā nothing Ā but Ā a Ā projection Ā but Ā with Ā cass Ā it Ā was Ā real Ā and Ā she Ā wanted Ā him Ā to Ā always Ā feel Ā that Ā , Ā the Ā wanting Ā that Ā she Ā had Ā for Ā him Ā and Ā the Ā care Ā in Ā which Ā she Ā delivered Ā it Ā , Ā even Ā when Ā it Ā was Ā just Ā fun Ā . Ā parting Ā from Ā the Ā kiss Ā she Ā moved Ā to Ā press Ā a Ā kiss Ā to Ā his Ā jaw Ā and Ā then Ā whisper Ā warm Ā beside Ā his Ā ear Ā , Ā ā Ā itās Ā definitely Ā my Ā turn Ā to Ā go Ā first Ā this Ā time Ā , Ā ā Ā she Ā teases Ā , Ā referencing Ā the Ā way Ā things Ā normally Ā went Ā , Ā the Ā way Ā he Ā always Ā tried Ā to Ā defer Ā attention Ā from Ā himself Ā and Ā focus Ā on Ā her Ā . Ā for Ā once Ā she Ā wasnāt Ā asking Ā . Ā not Ā because Ā she Ā didnāt Ā care Ā but Ā because Ā she Ā felt Ā that Ā at Ā this Ā point Ā , Ā it Ā was Ā okay Ā to Ā go Ā ahead Ā , Ā that Ā it Ā was Ā comfortable Ā , Ā her Ā hands Ā moving Ā to Ā figure Ā out Ā the Ā material Ā at Ā his Ā waistband Ā as Ā she Ā climbed Ā off Ā of Ā him Ā enough Ā to Ā pull Ā the Ā material Ā down Ā and Ā off Ā his Ā legs Ā without Ā much Ā trouble Ā . Ā ā Ā look Ā at Ā that Ā , Ā iām Ā an Ā expert Ā , Ā ā Ā she Ā was Ā still Ā teasing Ā , Ā her Ā tone Ā light Ā as Ā she Ā climbed Ā back Ā on Ā top Ā of Ā him Ā and Ā pulled Ā his Ā shirt Ā up Ā slightly Ā so Ā she Ā could Ā press Ā her Ā lips Ā against Ā his Ā body Ā , Ā trailing Ā downwards Ā , Ā one Ā hand Ā resting Ā on Ā the Ā outer Ā edge Ā of Ā his Ā thigh Ā as Ā she Ā pulled Ā gently Ā to Ā press Ā her Ā lips Ā against Ā the Ā front Ā too Ā and Ā then Ā the Ā inside Ā , Ā making Ā her Ā way Ā closer Ā . Ā her Ā hand Ā wrapped Ā around Ā him Ā , Ā a Ā familiar Ā motion Ā , Ā her Ā lips Ā still Ā pressing Ā against Ā different Ā spots Ā as Ā she Ā began Ā to Ā move Ā it Ā before Ā coming Ā to Ā run Ā her Ā tongue Ā against Ā him Ā , Ā gaze Ā flicking Ā up Ā to Ā watch Ā his Ā reaction Ā . Ā
Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā showingĀ thingsĀ ,Ā feelingsĀ andĀ givingĀ backĀ theĀ loveĀ heĀ desperatelyĀ wantedĀ toĀ giveĀ backĀ tenfoldĀ toĀ cecilyaĀ ,Ā itĀ wasnātĀ somethingĀ thatĀ cameĀ easilyĀ .Ā talkingĀ orĀ openingĀ upĀ completelyĀ wasnātĀ somethingĀ thatĀ reallyĀ cameĀ allĀ thatĀ easilyĀ eitherĀ butĀ whenĀ itĀ cameĀ toĀ herĀ ,Ā heĀ wantedĀ toĀ jumpĀ headfirstĀ andĀ tryĀ .Ā evenĀ ifĀ hisĀ versionĀ ofĀ headfirstĀ wasĀ aĀ bitĀ ofĀ aĀ slowerĀ plummetĀ toĀ theĀ groundĀ .Ā sheĀ wasĀ everythingĀ heĀ wantedĀ andĀ moreĀ ,Ā everythingĀ heĀ probablyĀ didnātĀ deserveĀ butĀ nothingĀ heĀ wantedĀ toĀ letĀ goĀ ofĀ .Ā theĀ wayĀ cecilyaĀ sawĀ aĀ futureĀ withĀ himĀ ,Ā sawĀ aĀ wholeĀ lifeĀ .Ā itĀ wasĀ somethingĀ heādĀ neverĀ sawĀ forĀ himselfĀ .Ā aĀ futureĀ orĀ aĀ lifeĀ .Ā figuringĀ somethingĀ wouldĀ finallyĀ catchĀ upĀ toĀ himĀ andĀ heādĀ beĀ goneĀ wayĀ tooĀ soonĀ toĀ haveĀ anyĀ realĀ futureĀ orĀ lifeĀ toĀ leaveĀ .Ā butĀ nowĀ heĀ sawĀ moreĀ ,Ā heĀ sawĀ somethingĀ withĀ cecilyaĀ .Ā heĀ sawĀ aĀ lifeĀ withĀ herĀ .Ā theyĀ bothĀ knewĀ itĀ didnātĀ fixĀ himĀ orĀ cureĀ himĀ fromĀ allĀ theĀ demonsĀ heĀ facedĀ butĀ sheĀ didĀ stillĀ helpĀ himĀ moreĀ thanĀ heĀ couldĀ everĀ reallyĀ putĀ intoĀ wordsĀ withoutĀ itĀ soundingĀ completelyĀ cheesyĀ .Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā ā¤Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā itĀ wasĀ crazyĀ toĀ thinkĀ howĀ theyādĀ gottenĀ hereĀ .Ā afterĀ allĀ thisĀ timeĀ ,Ā theyĀ managedĀ toĀ beĀ whereĀ theyĀ wereĀ nowĀ .Ā itĀ wasnātĀ evenĀ theĀ sexualĀ positionĀ theyĀ wereĀ inĀ butĀ allĀ ofĀ itĀ .Ā howĀ comfortableĀ theyĀ wereĀ withĀ eachĀ otherĀ ,Ā howĀ theyĀ knewĀ eachĀ otherĀ likeĀ theĀ backĀ ofĀ theirĀ handsĀ andĀ howĀ ridiculouslyĀ inĀ loveĀ theyĀ wereĀ withĀ eachĀ otherĀ .Ā thatĀ wasĀ probablyĀ theĀ mostĀ shockingĀ partĀ ofĀ allĀ ofĀ itĀ forĀ cassidyĀ .Ā notĀ becauseĀ itĀ wasĀ cecilyaĀ butĀ heādĀ neverĀ thoughtĀ heādĀ loveĀ someoneĀ asĀ muchĀ asĀ heĀ lovedĀ herĀ .Ā heĀ didnātĀ thinkĀ itĀ wasĀ evenĀ possibleĀ ,Ā likeĀ thatĀ kindĀ ofĀ loveĀ didnātĀ existĀ .Ā thatĀ peopleĀ thatĀ spokeĀ ofĀ itĀ ,Ā theyĀ wereĀ fullĀ ofĀ itĀ .Ā butĀ nowĀ heĀ knewĀ ,Ā theyĀ werenātĀ .Ā toĀ feelĀ suchĀ anĀ intenseĀ connectionĀ withĀ someoneĀ onĀ everyĀ singleĀ levelĀ ,Ā itĀ seemedĀ incrediblyĀ rareĀ .Ā almostĀ likeĀ youĀ hadĀ toĀ beĀ luckyĀ toĀ catchĀ itĀ .Ā thatĀ ifĀ youĀ blinkedĀ tooĀ fastĀ ,Ā youādĀ missĀ itĀ .
Ā Ā Ā Ā tuckingĀ hisĀ lipĀ underneathĀ hisĀ topĀ teethĀ ,Ā heĀ bitĀ atĀ hisĀ bottomĀ lipĀ slightlyĀ whenĀ sheĀ beganĀ toĀ maneuverĀ herselfĀ .Ā herĀ handsĀ trailingĀ againstĀ hisĀ bodyĀ andĀ pullingĀ downĀ hisĀ clothesĀ ,Ā pushingĀ upĀ theĀ fabricĀ ofĀ hisĀ shirtĀ .Ā sexualĀ encountersĀ wereĀ alwaysĀ suchĀ aĀ weirdĀ thingĀ forĀ cassidyĀ .Ā heĀ didnātĀ knowĀ ifĀ heĀ gotĀ anyĀ realĀ satisfactionĀ outĀ ofĀ itĀ .Ā forĀ awhileĀ ,Ā heĀ thoughtĀ thereĀ wasĀ somethingĀ justĀ thatĀ tickedĀ aĀ bitĀ differentlyĀ withĀ himĀ .Ā butĀ heĀ cameĀ toĀ findĀ outĀ heĀ wasĀ justĀ disconnectedĀ .Ā thatĀ sureĀ ,Ā itĀ feltĀ goodĀ inĀ theĀ normalĀ ,Ā frictionĀ andĀ motionĀ bitĀ ofĀ itĀ allĀ .Ā butĀ cassidyĀ hadĀ alwaysĀ ,Ā evenĀ whenĀ heĀ claimedĀ notĀ toĀ beĀ ,Ā beenĀ aĀ veryĀ emotionallyĀ reactiveĀ personĀ .Ā ifĀ thereĀ wasĀ noĀ emotionalĀ connectĀ ,Ā heĀ wasĀ disconnectedĀ .Ā seeminglyĀ ,Ā thatāsĀ whyĀ itĀ wasĀ soĀ easyĀ forĀ himĀ notĀ toĀ takeĀ anythingĀ seriouslyĀ thatĀ happenedĀ toĀ himĀ .Ā thatĀ heĀ letĀ thingsĀ happenĀ toĀ himĀ withoutĀ lettingĀ itĀ reallyĀ processĀ ifĀ heĀ wantedĀ itĀ orĀ notĀ .Ā butĀ theĀ wayĀ thingsĀ hadĀ builtĀ withĀ cecilyaĀ .Ā theĀ wayĀ theyĀ startedĀ withĀ somethingĀ aĀ lotĀ moreĀ emotionallyĀ drivenĀ ,Ā theĀ wayĀ theyĀ builtĀ thatĀ comfortĀ withĀ eachĀ otherĀ .Ā itĀ broughtĀ everythingĀ upĀ toĀ anĀ elevenĀ .Ā heĀ trustedĀ herĀ andĀ probablyĀ didnātĀ needĀ herĀ toĀ askĀ himĀ itĀ wasĀ whatĀ heĀ wantedĀ becauseĀ atĀ thisĀ pointĀ sheĀ knewĀ himĀ soĀ wellĀ ,Ā sheĀ knewĀ whenĀ heĀ wasĀ wantingĀ somethingĀ andĀ whenĀ heĀ wasnātĀ andĀ sheĀ respectedĀ himĀ .Ā justĀ asĀ heĀ didĀ withĀ herĀ .Ā cassidyĀ didĀ likeĀ toĀ takeĀ theĀ attentionĀ offĀ himselfĀ butĀ itĀ wasĀ likeĀ cecilyaĀ hadĀ alwaysĀ slowlyĀ workedĀ himĀ upĀ aĀ pointĀ ofĀ lettingĀ someĀ ofĀ theĀ attentionĀ beĀ onĀ himĀ .Ā tryingĀ toĀ letĀ himĀ getĀ comfortableĀ withĀ theĀ ideaĀ ofĀ itĀ .Ā Ā Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā youĀ knowĀ meĀ ,Ā iĀ onlyĀ likeĀ theĀ bestĀ .Ā proĀ shitĀ onlyĀ .Ā Ā Ā āĀ Ā Ā Ā Ā heĀ jokedĀ ,Ā hisĀ backĀ straighteningĀ aĀ bitĀ whenĀ sheĀ startedĀ toĀ moveĀ herĀ lipsĀ againstĀ hisĀ skinĀ ,Ā aĀ rushĀ likeĀ feelingĀ bubblingĀ inĀ hisĀ chestĀ asĀ sheĀ movedĀ closerĀ andĀ closerĀ .Ā pushingĀ hisĀ palmsĀ againstĀ theĀ mattressĀ asĀ herĀ handĀ reachedĀ upĀ toĀ himĀ andĀ herĀ tongueĀ finallyĀ movedĀ againstĀ theĀ skinĀ .Ā cassidyĀ closedĀ hisĀ eyesĀ forĀ aĀ momentĀ atĀ theĀ feelingĀ ,Ā openingĀ themĀ againĀ afterĀ aĀ momentĀ .Ā movingĀ oneĀ ofĀ hisĀ handsĀ overĀ toĀ holdĀ ontoĀ herĀ freeĀ armĀ asĀ sheĀ beganĀ .
