"And All I Loved, I Loved Alone"

“No one in my family, not one of my friends or classmates realized that I was going through life asleep. It was literally true: I was going through life asleep. My body had no more feeling than a drowned corpse. My very existence, my life in the world, seemed like a hallucination. A strong wind would make me think my body was about to be blown to the end of the earth, to some land I had never seen or heard of, where my mind and body would separate forever. ‘Hold tight’, I would tell myself, but there was nothing for me to hold on to.”

“I am going to face certain things. It is going to be a time of adventure and attack, rather lonely and painful I think.”

…I had so much fire in me and so many plans…

What a terrible thing it is to wound someone you really care for and to do it so unconsciously.

Don’t be afraid to lose people. Be afraid of losing yourself by trying to please everyone around you.