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anyway i am surrounded by love and i have cried into the shoulders and arms of my friends and loved ones; i am working on a project that is larger and more whole than i will ever be; i am greater than the sum of my parts and the things i create with my comrades will be greater than i ever will; i am dumb and low and small and i hate myself but i am still here and i will not leave until i have said all that i need to say. my words&thoughts&work (esp with the wonderful bandmates&video game guys) are greater than my self & that is a truth be it beautiful or terrible or both. i am terrified & awed by the universe and death is the most terrifying concept i will ever know but thats ok & will i ever be ok? who knows but i will fill my life with good friends & hard work & my nightmares will slowly become not about what i have been thru but abt the ways in which i should have pushed myself even farther past my breaking point. i am a person & i will die & the world will continue long, long after i am gone & that is terrifying but thats okay