未来 mirai

as i lay here, waiting to be painted—so wishful and bare.

for the life i never got to live, and the person i never got to become.

mine have started to brim with loss as they meet his.

i have already been torn asunder—there’s nothing left of me to maim.

but it has never been a bit of anyone.

a fleeting paragon of forever.

but for you, i’d deprecate the sun from its place.

while i waited in patience to start ours.

my anger is my hell.

i am ruined, and yet, you held me most divine.

so, leave me alone, but never with my thoughts.

felt, but never seen.

and i was unable to see what’s ahead of our story—it ended without starting.

while i waited in patience to start ours.

forever linger upon my presence. i am yet a living soul dreaming of death for your ghost.

you happened.

dearest, you’re so full of love, and i, of hatred—put your soul on a platter for me to have.