yikes

honestly dont feel like tagging this one i literally conked out to soccer mommy collection on loop & just went out... all i had on my mind was this one random youtube comment from years ago & their name was “captain princess” & the randomness, funniness, & personality radiating from the comment & name combination stuck with me for years also i may be thinking abt things that have shaped me in the past so...

so um i felt awkward with my last post being my most recent since i had this (last image) seraphine wip that i thought i uploaded honestly + reading that last post abt my work crush was like a slap in the face OMG.... by the way he transferred with me can u imagine the- ok.

ANYWAYS HELP... i felt bad with WIPs sitting in my folder yet having 0 new posts. as weird as that is but anyways these are in chronological order & the FIRST TWO are actually sketches from the same exact page but i really like the first one & i could’ve sworn i posted it? i liked it a lot i thought i posted it here & i went pretty far back since these are from july of LAST YEAR... at the latest since sometimes i go back & edit .sais like occasionally. they’re no one in particular but ms. eyes was SUPPOSED to be zoe from league of legends (oh hey history repeats itself) if she was raised as lux. there was a matching lux-if-she-was-chosen-to-be-aspect-of-twilight sketch to go with her but..... it became a hot mess & i only drew the hair & gave up & if ur looking at just the EYES of the other sketch then u can assume the same turned out but um anyways.

me in my work uniform which was originally part of a larger sketch where i also drew my work crush (one of four yes)

but fun fact i actually do not like him anymore bc he watched me do something without helping at all & then i realized love is not dead it just cannot be found within a corrupt power dynamic ♥

i kid, but the company i work for is so unforgiving to its workers & i realized i only liked him bc he happened to be staring at me + he had brown eyes & i.... have no excuses but i am not sorry i would do it again

+ I’M LITERALLY GETTING TRANSFERRED?? Fuck you i literally will not see you in 2 weeks. bye bitch!

on the bright side 2 of the other 3 are transferring with me so love is back in session and we will see in said 2 weeks if i will ever talk to them outside of work and the answer will be no but there will be an attempt

i am no action but i am all effort and hope and that’s really all that matters at the end of the day

Omg i literally never posted the first one, which is from october, so that’s kinda wild. anyways, there may be points where i regularly update this blog, but if we’re being honest it’s literally just resorted to a deviantart replacement because there is no way i’m drawing consistently HELP!

anyways... the first bad boee is bed the twice reborn, whomst i made really quickly for a dnd campaign... LMFAO. i made it in under like 30 minutes & it was something i really did not want to be TOO dedicated to bc ik how that would turn out & i just wanted it to be like a mockup of him.

every time i write a dnd character’s backstory i literally just like black out and the spirit of character creation does it for me. no i will not elaborate. so bed was originally a magma spirit that was apart of the earth’s core, in which it lived a hivemind-like existence before a scar was left on the core that was strong enough for the spirit to split off. it clawed to the surface before inhabiting a random villager. the villager’s conscious was now gone & overtaken by the spirit who is now soul searching, trying to piece together the personality that was left within him by the villager while also preventing more scars, which he believes were man-made, while searching for the cause of the original scar that caused his new birth. he is bed twice reborn, bitch!

that was too long & i will not talk about that every again anyways. this second one didn’t start as cethlenn from mabinogi but that’s what it turned into. wild. i know it doesn’t look like ceth but let’s be honest i didn’t even touch chapter 6 yet . . . not on purpose. HELP. this is from april 23

and the last one was honestly from me like... mid-daydream. i was imagining myself performing songs live like with synthesizers & drum kits & everything for a talent show & i got through 3 songs in my head before i was like. “what would i wear” & so i thought of this one outfit i had but i didn’t know if it would like actually look cute so i drew it. justresourcefulthings mayhaps. the random lips were just a test but i kept them for the atmosphere xd. this one is another piece i did not want to get too invested in or spend too much time on so i like started rushing when i felt that like mounting dread of “omg there’s so much wrong” LOOL

art! in reality: i am dealing w friendships & the required drama that follows!!

life is just this like really weird gap between A & B rn so i’m like floating towards B

meanwhile on board to B, i drew this! i was listening to appointments by julien baker & i just drew full body, FINALLY. i know i’ll never get better if i don’t just go out there & let myself make something i KNOW i’ll always see as “ugly”

this started as a random sketch with the pink color & i ended up going over it w black & making stripes because i’m so quirky....

my time to post once a year has come & it’s in the form of a redraw. had no idea what i wanted to draw so my first instinct is to go through my .sais NOT to hopefully finish one but to find inspiration & this is when this redraw came from!

redraw from my happy bday carlos & SPEAKING OF WHICH IT’S ACTUALLY TODAY I’M SCREAAAAAAAAMING

didn’t plan this but it happened so Y’ALL

hi art dump part 1 of 2 in order from oldest to most recent

the first one was meant to be my discord icon, as were the 2 after that but then i was like ya yeet i hate everything i produce! & decided not to LMAO. this one is called clavicle bc i kept saying “suck on my clavicle” for that entire week uh kill me!

2nd one is this random ass elf idk shit ugly choke me

3rd is called brotherhood & it’s loosely based off of someone else’s discord icon i saw? EVERYTHING IS BASED OFF OF DISCORD SORRY IM ALWAYS ON MY LAPTOP BUt it also started as feminine & super girly w eyeliner & everything & then i was like,,,, ok BUT I LIKE IT, i think it looks nice but it’s not my icon anymore bc um see 1st desc

4th is called pencils & is supposed to be my mabi char before i decided to rb as a dude,,,, dont regret it bc i think the guy is cuter no tea no shade,,,

this is fart gomez and she’s an ugly fucking biTCH who’s not even going to be tagged with the art tags because i can’t stand her <3

this looks like a wip but!! it!! isnt!! i’m just

super unmotivated to do a full body?? i’ve felt that way ever since getting back into drawing & it’s gonna stick around for a while until i actually d0. i’m sorry :o( that’s more me apologizing to myself bc i need to shape the shit up but anyWYAS

here’s a headshot of ryuko matoi from kill la kill!! i’m like one of the handful of people who actually really love & appreciate klk because it’s an amazing anime & i’ll argue with anyone who thinks it’s trash it isn’t

i made a lot of mistakes & i actually put effort into this for some reason?? that’s not even shade @ klk it’s just like wow i actually lined & shaded something.

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i’ve been really really happy with my art as of late & watching some talented friends & youtubers sketch live has really helped me! i really recommend just shadowing someone who’s art you really like & you’d be amazed at what you pick up :o)