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“I agree, it is all water under the bridge as they say.” He smiled. “No it is not. It would be wonderful if it could be but then it wouldn’t be life.”

❝ exactly ❞ she smiled, nice to hear someone agreed for once ❝ that’s true. i couldn’t have said it better myself. i’m davina, by the way. i can’t remember if i have seen you around before? even though we are stuck here, but you can’t meet everyone at the same time, i guess ❞

Thinking about it for a moment the only person who could really trick her was possibly Klaus or Elijah but Klaus usually was very honest with her and was always trying to whoa her that it was easy to see past it all. That and she was in denial about her own feelings for so long. “I don’t think they were good. We always say past them because they were always stabbing us in the back. They were never trust worthy or anything. There was no hope with them.” She groaned thinking about all the hell the Mikaelson’s put her friends through and somehow she fell for Klaus through it all.

With a short laugh Caroline nodded her head. She understood wanting to defend them and going to New Orleans they changed. She did see that and saw the changes in Klaus. She went after him and could depend or lean on him. Rebekah did just want a normal life and here they were stabbing her in the back time to time to get revenge on them. “They have changed and I see it, will I still hate part of them. Always. Will I learn to move past it? Yes.” She stated as she soon spoke again. “I mean hell, I fell for Klaus with all the hell he put me and my friends through. In the end though he was an honourable man.” She slightly smiled before listening to Davina. Hearing about Kol, she never saw this side of him though, a side that Davina saw. She understood the fear of what could happen. That was similar to the fear of her being with Tyler. The ability that one bite could take from him could kill her and make her go insane with toxin’s from the werewolf bite. Smiling, Caroline leaned forward toward Davina, “I get it. There is always going to be a slight fear about what he could do. All it takes it one thing and he could do something. With how long you two have been together I imagine it would eat him up inside if he were to ever lay a hand on you. He is lucky to have a woman like you in his life you know. Wishing for something is normal. Wishing for a more normal life without having to worry about anything is okay.”

her mind still wandered away to where marcel could be. she could feel alone with him by her side. he was after all the first person she could trust after everything with the coven, kol being the second. it wasn’t easy for her to trust anyone because in the end of the day they could stab you in the back, or only came to you if they needed favors. caroline’s answer got her thinking ; they were true. davina only nodded her head as a sign that she heard and listened. no hope, but it was now, maybe. she wanted to go back in the past, tell them all life would be better.

davina bit on her lower lip. yeah, everyone could change if they wanted to. every person all had a choice to do it. you didn’t have to be the same person you were many years ago, but perhaps sometimes when you have a reputation it wasn’t easy for everyone to see past it whenever you have decided you want to become a different person, a better version of you perhaps, or worse, whichever people deserved. it’s how she tried to see it, everything with the most powerful family on earth, even if some of them were not easy to trust. their oldest brother could she not say much about, she barely knew finn, heard of him, seen him, nothing more. to judge him wouldn’t be right.

❝ yes, of course it might always be a side of everyone you will not like, but they have showed they are good people. perhaps can i somehow relate to them, their background story. i get it. klaus has shown that he can be protective, loyal and kind whenever he wants to be ❞ she could admit it. and nowadays she didn’t hate klaus. disliked him sometimes? yes. hate was such a strong word and it wasn’t hate she felt towards him anymore ❝ exactly. even though they are all different, i believe kol is the one you should fear because sometimes you don’t know where he is in his mind. he may not like that i talk about this with anyone, i don’t know ❞ she wasn’t afraid, just a little worried if he would find out she talked about her doubts with another person, he could get angry, but a part of her did not believe it. she trusted him, always ❝ i think it would. i know it is, i just sometimes feel as it is wrong to wish for it. everything became somewhat more normal with the kids ❞ 

He chuckled, it seemed they could go around in circles both trying to take the blame. “Perhaps we are both at fault. Apologies accepted on both ends?” He smiled. “I understand completely. My mind has not been as sharp lately.”

❝ mhm, doesn’t matter anymore. isn’t anything i want to start to discuss about, would be pointless and silly ❞ who started to fight about it? perhaps someone did, never leads anywhere ❝ yes, you can trust me with that. life isn’t always easy, is it? i wish it was ❞

“Oh, I was simply apologizing for bumping into you.” He gave the woman a small smile. “You are most welcome. It was my fault, I was not paying attention the way I should have been. You’re not hurt are you?”

she smiled ❝ oh. it’s okay. no no, i should have paid more attention to my surrounding. i am the one who should apologize. if i’d seen you... ❞ she started, didn’t want him to feel bad ❝ i could have noticed. yes, i am fine, thank you for asking. my mind was just distracted, it’s been for a while lately ❞

     Feeling like he needed to bite his tongue, Kol nodded his head, ❝It’s not as bad as it seems. It’s not every night that I have them. I just fear that they’ll come back if I close my eyes.❞ His voice was quiet as he spoke and he hated every bit of this. ❝I’m sorry darling.❞ He whispered as he had a pained look on his face looking toward her. He felt horrible for lying about it, closing his eyes and pretending to be asleep when he wasn’t actually. Of all the years that Kol lived, Davina was the woman that made him feel most alive again, gave him a reason to live and fight and it made his heart feel whole. He hated how his family would push either of them and wanted to distance himself from them most times. ❝You mean everything to me as well, Davina. I want nothing than to protect you and keep you safe from any harm.❞ He watched her come closer and his muscles finally began to loosen up now. ❝We an figure it out together.❞ He nodded his head as his hand cupped her cheek softly if she allowed it. ❝I swear I will do my best to get better and to not harm you. All I want is to love you and every inch of your body.❞ 

her gaze froze on the wall behind him as he spoke. she tried to think up a spell that could hopefully help him, but she probably have to dig deeper, use the old grimoires. someone must have written anything down about nightmares. she bit on her tongue, looked back to kol ❝ i’ll take a look in the old grimoires to see if i can find a spell or a potion. i may not be able to take it away completely, but can make it slow down ❞ was she the kindest wife in the town? perhaps. not many people would help the mikaelson the way she had, or was forced to sometimes, kol would she always help, that was different ❝ don’t be, kol. i am fine, you are fine, it’s what matters the most ❞ she wanted to say, let us forget this happened today and move on, but she had a feeling he wouldn’t. this would not be something you just forget. her face lit up with a smile when she heard his next words, she would never get tires of hearing him tell her how much she meant to him. davina stood up on her toes and softly kissed his cheek ❝ hey now, let me see that beautiful smile of yours i love ❞ she missed it ❝ yeah, we will. no matter how long it may take, i’m sure we will find something. are you hungry? ❞ she asked, probably should have a while ago ❝ i got new blood bags yesterday from the hospital, so they should be fresh ❞

“There are some things she regrets I know.” She still remembers the day she asked her grams to help her and she did regret that. There were a few others as well that she was sure Bonnie regretted just like herself and actions she’s done. Laughing she nodded her head. “Rumour speak faster than a magazine here.” She mused but started to slightly frown. “Yeah, Stefan. It is weird about the whole doppelgänger thing but once you know each of them they’re really easy to tell apart unless they decide to freakin’ trick us.” She groaned about that part. The amount of times that Silas and Katherine did that really frustrated her. “I mean what’s the point in posing as our friends?” She spoke out shaking her head about it. Caroline understood not liking people. Klaus had did a lot to a lot of people and people would use her to try and calm him down because of the thing the two of them had, as for Kol though there was no reasoning with him from the interactions that they had in the past and she was fine with just staying clear of most of the Mikaelson family aside from Klaus now. “They’ve done a lot to a lot of people and not everyone is going to like them. Hell Rebekah drove me up a wall so often that I thought I was going to go bald once.” She spoke trying to listen the mood about it. “I do and I’m not sorry for how I feel but it doesn’t mean that I’m not liking you.” She wanted Davina to know that just because she married Kol doesn’t mean that the two of them couldn’t possibly be friends. “If you were to love everyone you’re a liar and a fake.”

❝ that can i understand ❞ perhaps more than anyone. when she was a regent for a short while, she did mistakes that made people hate her. she didn’t know what she was thinking, stupid to think it would have been something she could get away with. powerful and a bit naive after all the years spent in the room in the church without any contact with the world outside, only marcel. she thought she was more powerful than everyone because she had the power to know when someone else used it in new orleans a few years ago, before the mikaelson family returned ❝ exactly, and it goes on and on, then when it comes to someone else it might be changed ❞ it could be toxic if it came to the wrong person ❝ and they are good at tricking you? ❞ a brow raised, at her question to the blonde. they could not try to be another person, right? something must give it away that they were not the person they said they were. 

davina started to feel more uncomfortable when caroline spoke about the mikaelson family. she had bo clue what they had done before she got to know them. stories had she heard, how they were, but not like this. rebekah seemed to be nice, at least what davina had seen, but they had their differences and fought sometimes over silly things, but they cared about each other ❝ i cannot imagine she has. the rebekah i have met has been kind, a temper, yes. on the other hand, i should not be surprised, since the whole family has anger issues ❞ over a thousand years walking on the earth could perhaps do that to you, much to be angry at. she started to chew on the inside of her cheek, as the vampire continued. well aware, not everyone liked her husband, nothing she could do about it. she did not like everyone in the town, she had nothing to say. her last words were something to think about, if you were to love everyone you’re a liar and a fake. might be truth behind it. a sigh left her lips, her eyes rolled a little as she looked away from caroline ❝ thanks, maybe? yeah, your last words are true. this is nothing i have told anyone, sometimes i regret i married kol, i love him a lot and the best person i have ever met after marcel, but sometimes am i afraid of what kol might do, you know? i know my magic can protect me, but what if it isn’t enough? the original vampires are stronger than others and you can’t fight with them. i can think of how my life would have been if one of my friends from school was still alive, a guy i had a crush on, if we would end up together, or if kol never got his original body back, when he he took over a witch’s body. i kinda miss it. just, please, don’t tell anyone i said this? i’d tell marcel these things usually, but he’s nowhere to be found anymore, or not often, and since we...  ❞ she paused, she talked much now ❝ got into the subject, it made me think more of everything ❞

Ben was out getting in his run before he went to open the gym. Normally he was very focused, but his mind was wondering this morning. He found it to be doing that more and more lately. Without realizing it he ran straight into someone else. Thankfully, He was able to catch himself and the other before they tumbled to the ground. “I am so terribly sorry. Are you alright?”

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davina needed more time to herself, to think about her life, private and at work. everything had been a lot lately, she thought of if she should take a pause from her job. a rest from what stressed her the most could make it easier. with the headphones on her head she walked around the town, sang along to the music, ignored the rest in her surroundings. she didn’t noticed the other person until they both probably almost fell, made her glad he was able to catch her before she could have hurt herself by accident ❝ what? ❞ she asked, pulled off the headphones from her ears, let them rest around her neck ❝ i’m sorry, what did you say? thank you, for catching me, i didn’t notice ❞

     Slowly shaking her head she looked to her aunt. ❝Nothing I’ve found leads to anything. Nothing like this has ever happened in our lifetime so how can we fix this? I think we need to create our own spell but it would come at a cost and I’m trying not to let it be one of our lives. I’ve already been avoiding that with the whole Malivor thing.❞ She trusted her Aunt Davina more than some of the others but it also could of been a witch bond that the two of them had. She also understood her she felt like. She loved the rest of her family as well, Freya, Rebekah, Kol, everybody. Kol and Davina had a soft spot for her though.

❝ i have tried to find answers too, practice dark magic to find a balance so it will not kill me if i one day have to use it. yes, as it do with all magic, comes with a cost. perhaps takes away what we have built up here, and no vampires can have kids anymore. i’d hate the idea if it were to happen. even though we are all stuck, they made something good to give us the opportunity to have children if we wanted to and all the other vampires as well ❞ she wouldn’t want that to be taken away for anyone. maybe not everyone could have a child, but at least they had the opportunity she spoke of ❝ you mean if someone sacrifice themselves? ❞ davina would be willed to do that if no one else wanted to. she was almost ninety percent certain her husband would find a way to bring her back then. 

     Realizing that she had snapped at her aunt, Hope let out a heavy sigh, ❝Sorry, Aunt Davina.❞ She breathed out her words, ❝Of course I care what you guys have to say, just been busy trying to figure out a lot of things like trying to help the town feel more free away from the damn sirens and let vampire reproduce so I don’t take that away from people like MG and Kaleb.❞ 

she glanced down a brief second while hope spoke ❝ understandable reason. have you found anything you can do? i just thought we could talk, i can’t exactly go to someone else in the family about this and i do not feel like i can trust them all with it ❞

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     Looking back to who was speaking, Hope felt herself snap slightly. ❝Look whatever you’re saying I really don’t care right now. If it’s really important fine, I’ll listen but I’ve got other things that are important right now.❞ 

her lips formed into a pout ❝ huh, that made me sad to hear, hope. you don’t care what anyone from your family has to say to you? ❞ she asked with a small smile on her lips ❝ what important things do you have to do? ❞

     All the pain that he just did in this moment consumed him, feeling his emotions ten times more than any normal human would was always a downside of being a vampire, no matter how long one has lived. He could never truly forgive himself any moment that he laid a hand on Davina, even if it was a spell that made him do it or not. He never wanted one hair on her perfect head to be damaged or touched unless it was him touching her, in a non-aggressive way. Kol could hear her heartbeat. He could hear her breathing and he wanted so desperately to calm both of them down. With his brows furrowed from pain and guilt he paused a bit not wanting to answer her question. ❝Months. I’ve hardly slept because of them.❞ He couldn’t bring himself to go about it more. It had been years really since he’s had them, since the kids were born they started but it started more frequently in the last couple of moths every time he would fall asleep. Shaking his head Kol refused to accept it. ❝Listen to me darling.. I would do anything to bring you back, no matter the price. I can’t survive without you in my life.❞ He now brushed her hair away from her face as his eyes searched hers. ❝I can’t live with myself if I were the one to cause you death again.❞

to just hear the answer from him made her feel more sad. months? and he didn’t want to tell him, she could have found a spell or try to make a potion that could calm down his nerves and let him sleep without the nightmares ❝ months ❞ she mumbled. davina had most of the nights slept very good, the thought of him probably laying awake because of the dreams got her wondering why she never noticed it, but she was always exhausted whenever she went to bed. her mind wandered away to what others would think if they ever found out about this ( not that they would, she wouldn’t tell anyone, maybe only marcel ), others they would probably tell her to leave kol because she put her own life in danger. but she could not leave him, no matter what happened. she had never felt like this for anyone else, he was her first real love and she didn’t want to throw it away ❝ i’d rather it be you who caused my death again, no matter how horrible it sounds. i know you would do anything, kol, and i love you for that. you mean the world to me ❞ she replied, took a step closer, but kept her gaze focused on the floor. even though they had talked about this for a while now, she was a little afraid to meet his eyes ❝ we can figure this out together, maybe? i can try finding a spell or a potion? must be something to make it stop, right? you shouldn’t be afraid to fall asleep because of your nightmares ❞

“She’s done a lot for us and sacrificed so much.” Caroline smiled about one of her best friends. To think that they were all just innocent humans one day, unaware of the supernatural world until everything changed. “I’m sure they do. I mean you witches know more about each other than I know about people.” She laughed a little about it. “Sometimes our best friends turn out to be vampires right off the bat. I mean I never expected for Stefan to be one of my best friends when I first met him.” She smiled about the memory, slight guilt about divorcing him but it was for the best for her. “He would be the blonde one. Very handsome and very sweet and caring for his friends.” It was easy to talk about her friends even if she dated half of them. “He is one of the Mikaelson’s I don’t think I can ever trust. I’ve yet to see the good side compared to you and from what I see about you.. you’re a sweet and caring person, he on the other hand, no offence, is a ruthless killer who doesn’t care.”

❝ not all good, i believe? ❞ she had done things she regret, like helping the mikaelson family sometimes when she didn’t want to. the worst part about being a witch, they only saw what you had, the magic, not cared about you as a person, it’s how she had thought of it all ❝ yeah, you hear things. can be worse than the magazines ❞ she giggled softly. almost sounded as a gossip magazine ❝ stefan salvatore you mean? the man who shares his face with two others, i can never tell them apart. i understand you there. i never thought my best friend josh and i would meet. i think some of these good people come into our lives for a reason and are here to stay with us through it all ❞ she often wondered, what the world would have been without these people she was close to. if marcel never had saved her, what would have happened to her? it could cross her mind, especially at night when she couldn’t sleep ❝ i have noticed the way he speak to someone. he seems to be, i have never talked with him to know ❞ she shrugged. they were stuck in these two towns and she had not spoken to everyone, or knew them well ❝ why, because of his past? i say the same about klaus, i have never trusted him, but i got a reason for it. i don’t hate anyone or dislike them because they do not like kol, i can understand it, to me has he been kind from the beginning. no worries, i understand what you mean and i can agree with you, but he can be kind when he wants to be and sweet. i don’t think he show it to everyone. can’t have been easy for any of them ❞ she frowned. davina had not much to say about people not liking her husband, she felt the same about klaus, as she mentioned, never had trusted the hybrid ❝ and you probably have you reasons to think the way you do about my husband. i honestly do not care much what anyone think of him, everyone thinks different about everyone and its human, you can’t love everyone ❞

bonnie had just grabbed her takeout from the grill and was planning on going home to indulge in her burger and fries, but a voice suddenly stopped her. turning her head, she shook her head at the girl. “nope, not mine,” she said with a small smile, passing the bag from her right to her left hand. “it seems to like you, though,” she commented, shuffling over toward the cat to pet it slowly and gently.

davina looked up at the other witch, her lips formed into a pout ❝ seems to like not so good people then ❞ she replied with a soft giggle ❝ i’m kidding. yeah, too bad i can’t take him home. i’d love to, but sadly do i not trust the family to let him live there in peace ❞

“Out here seems like the best place to get away from all the madness.” She let out a soft breath of air. It was hard to trust people, even herself.

❝ yes, better here than out in the open. does it feel better now? ❞ she asked. maybe this was something she needed to do too, instead of holding everything inside of her and slowly let it take over.

Swaying her head back and forth thinking about it for a moment to think she soon spoke, “Dogs are okay, but I’m not one to own a pet. Too much for me to take care of.” She stated casually. “It’s not fun. Who would want to live with fur?”

❝ understand you there. pets takes a lot of your time and you can’t leave the house for too many hours ❞ what she assumed, might be that way, no matter which pet you had ❝ no clue, those who really love them, am i guessing? ❞

“We’ve been lucky to have Bonnie in our life who so happened to be a witch. Who would of thought my entire friendship group would end up being supernatural beings… Aside from Matt of course.” She started to slightly rant with a small chuckle getting back to the cat. “It’s hard to picture Kol with a cat. I mean it was hard to picture him married but look at the two of you.”

❝ i have heard of her, a few things she has done in the past. rumors spread around witches. unexpected things happens all the time. it’s probably difficult to be around the supernatural when you are human, especially hungry vampires. i was lucky to have my best friend josh, but he was already a vampire when we met ❞ she paused for a short while before she continued ❝ sadly wasn’t all of my friends lucky to survive the supernatural. matt? ah, he is the blonde guy right? quite handsome and the bluest eyes i have ever seen ❞ she chuckled. it wasn’t weird to think other men were handsome, huh? even though you were married, it wasn’t like she ran after them ❝ judged on how he is as a person? i didn’t think i would be married, especially not with him, but guess everyone changes. however, him living with a cat, no, can’t see it either. he may not eat animals, but the thought is there? cats can be annoying have i heard. imagine if it does something that makes him angry ❞ she could almost see it infront of her, even though she trusted her husband to not harm a cat.