Nothing thrills us anymore, no one kills us anymore

This is going to be long, which is why I’m putting it under a cut, so bear with me.

First off, I’d like to apologize. Dearly. How I acted when I was in this fandom when it was at it’s peak was 100% not okay. I treated a lot of people very awfully and it wasn’t okay. I started drama sometimes and that also wasn’t cool. 

Basically, I did a lot of shit things. And I’m very sorry for how I acted.

I also feel terrible because..well, I kind’ve left without warning. It all kinda just got too much for me, so I left. But I left behind some really awesome friends, and it sucks. I haven’t noticed much activity in the MCSM fandom from some of the people I know. And honestly, I’m curious if the Discord group is still up and running. 

I don’t really blame anyone if they’re mad at me for all the shit I’ve done. It was stupid.

But I’m back for a little bit! If anyone wants to talk, give me a shout!

ok so like

i see a lot of super cuddly jesskas and thats great!!! i love it!!!

but id love to see like,

stressed out slowly inching into a relationship, semi-angry jesskas that turns soft and sweet as things go like??

they get mad at each other yeah but it’s like a “goddammit you may be cute but you cant be an idiot and getting killed” sorta mad 

along with arguing that turns into embarrassed “i cant believe i said that but you can still be dumb” apologies