Je fais le même rêve tous les soirs

[as if this is not a normal and natural human thing to want] yeah i just really want to connect with people for some reason. Like some weird loser freak

i love reading the text posts on here that are like little windows into everyones lives. someones having coffee. someones waiting for the bus. someones buying their friend a gift. someone's crying, someone's laughing. someones going to bed

but this is kinda good cause honestly I don’t need to know all of that

resist the urge to self-isolate, girl. people want you around. people don't think you're faulty. you're allowed to be wrong and make mistakes and missteps and people won't reject you for it. don't self-isolate. nobody in your life wants you to self-isolate. don't do it.

I shouldve reworded it better i think he knows i like him 😭😭😭 how and why. why is his friends mentioning it too ?!?!? Am i being paranoid. Probably. I like him in a "this environment is stressing me tf out but hes kinda nice to look at from a straw". Kinda embarrassed at myself that this man isnt even good looking. Im sorry im bored. God knows ive had it worse w my depression hes letting me off on this. Wait if his friends r teasing me on it does it also mean he mightve mentioned me or is interested in me too cuz i have avoidant attachment issues...Better to not know anything. Unfortunately my morals are built strong enough so i wouldnt wanna be involved romantically with a guy like him.

Just an update..turns out theres like a 5-8 years age gap hes like old enough to have kids. Is that even legal?

“hope this doesn’t awaken anything in me” is the funniest phrase because it always does. it always will. from personal experience things have already started to rouse from their slumber before i even get the first three words out

Thanks for being nice to me I’ll remember you forever