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#ENOUGH#WHY WON’T MERTHUR LET ME DIE#merlin#merthur#otp: i wouldn’t change a thing#ugh look how broken merlin looks#like you can just feel the empty twisting in his gut#you can just feel how hollow his chest is and how stinging his eyes are#how he’s so lightheaded but so heavy at the same time#you can just tell he thinks he’s a failure because he did so much for arthur and it turns out arthur hates him for it#AND LOOK AT HOW DEAD INSIDE ARTHUR IS#like he’s been betrayed one too many times - finally#all the other betrayals were nothing compared to this#if it had been anyone else - arthur would have fought on#but it’s MERLIN#the one arthur trusts more than anyone the one arthur spent every single waking moment with for 10 years#how could he have been so blind?#how could he have been so stupid? to know this man was lying to him?#how many times had arthur thought there was something different about merlin#something he couldn’t put his finger on?#god how could merlin do something like this to him? he thought they were friends#he thought they trusted one another#he thought merlin was a good man - the best man#but he’s this monster that arthur has been brainwashed to despise despite what he knows in his heart#can’t you just hear uther’s voice going through arthur’s head?#“it doesn’t change anything” that’s what uther is telling him#but arthur knows deep down it changes everything#because merlin - the bravest man he’d ever known - is protecting him one last time#like he did for a decade#he won’t let arthur die because he never has (via @colinmorgasms)