sorry mom and dad

i’m just out of it and sleepy enough for him to come take care of me or fuck me brainless, his pick <3

crying at ungodly hours because i’ve stopped feeling safe in our room again and my boyfriend isn’t available to help me feel safe and fall asleep

i miss my pretty boyfriend </3 i’ve had such a shit week and i want to bury my face in his tits

he’s so strong he’s literally the most buff guy i know i want this man to throw me over his shoulder and toss me on his bed please

recently he’s been only touching me during sex ?? :( he used to touch me lots, give me kisses and hold me but he dodges my physical affection now :(

he fucked me in the middle of one of my episodes and god it was amazing, he was so loving and kind i felt so cared for!! he was so gentle with me at first and he said such sweet things, it made me so happy he makes me so so happy i felt so pretty and desired he drives me so crazy

i will never be as desirable as him :(

i don’t want him to think i’m cute, i want him to be unable to stop himself from having his hands on me

having the not used to being physically affectionate boyfriend x overly physically affectionate girlfriend dynamic is great until the girlfriend is hypersexual and insecure during episodes

i’m so lucky to have him. i’m so lucky to be in a monogamous relationship with him. i’d be willingly putting myself in danger just for a brief moment of feeling wanted and desired if i wasn’t dating him. i could never do anything my intrusive thoughts are telling me to, i would rather die than break his heart and see him cry

my hypersexuality is so completely tied up in my self esteem and i just never realized it. i’ve never worried, not once, about my boyfriend not loving me but i’ve worried about him thinking i’m disgusting and undesirable and somehow that feels worse. i don’t doubt that he’ll comfort me and go on dates with me and do sweet romantic shit but i bawl my eyes out because i feel like he isn’t physically attracted to me outside of thinking i’m cute

he doesn’t touch me and it means that i’m undesirable and unwanted. he loves me but he can’t be attracted to me, he never touches me, we haven’t had sex in a month