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But I literally feel like I’m stuck in a nightmare. Every day, I hope that this will be the day that I wake up from it and leave all of this in the past. But it gets worse every day. I don’t know what the future holds; That’s the only thought that keeps me going. I can’t do this but I’m doing it anyway.

I don't understand how you've done these things to me I cannot comprehend your lack of loyalty For you I would have shaken down the heavens from the sky But it seems my love was stronger than this love of yours that died Did you think it wouldn't hurt? Did you think I wouldn't feel when the world came falling down? Or maybe you didn't think at all and that's why I feel what I feel now Did you think I wouldn't fall? Did you think I wouldn't cry? Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay ? One of these days you'll realize just what you've thrown away Now I lie here in this empty bed and all I think about is you And I wonder if you miss me now and if your bed is empty too Did you think it wouldn't hurt? Did you think I wouldn't feel when the world came falling down? Or maybe you didn't think at all and that's why I feel what I feel now Did you think I wouldn't fall? Did you think I wouldn't cry? Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay? One of these days you'll realize just what you've thrown away Marilyn, my bitterness I've fallen to a stranger nightmare Marilyn, oh Marilyn I cannot break away I'll absorb this agony I'll carry all this pain I'll wipe away all this emptiness I'll purify this stain My wings will fold around me now For once a one was two And my memory is a monument that will always stand for you Did you think it wouldn't hurt? Did you think I wouldn't feel when the world came falling down? Or maybe you didn't think at all and that's why I feel what I feel now Did you think I wouldn't fall? Did you think I wouldn't cry? Did you think I wouldn't beg you to stay ? One of these days you'll realize just what you've thrown away Marilyn, my bitterness I've fallen to a stranger nightmare Marilyn, oh Marilyn I cannot find my way Now must I go away?

It's shocking how well this show captures my mood at the moment.