N I K K I

late night early mourning will this happen every morning? remember that shit just aint the same remembering all the warning signs that will keep me away there is no one left to blame but myself put myself in a situation that lowered myself so down low I couldn’t help myself awkward situation, no occupation I lowered myself no anticipation, no reciprocation I lowered myself no loyalty no respect even unfulfilling sex there’s nothing left to say and there is no way I can stay and learn to love myself if you continued to treat me the same way at this point my mind ain’t the same and I am in dire need of change so I think it’s best if I stay far far away so I can lift myself back up build my self love back up get my self esteem back up remember when I would back my ass up? naw naw let’s not go there it just seems like I was never enough you didn’t want me you just liked having me around did you think you could do all you did without me making a sound? and I don’t mean like that baby I mean all the things you did like when you were shady I wish those things were hazy cos it seems like the memory and thoughts got me feeling and thinking crazy.. I am not alright these thoughts keep me up all night and mourning wake up and remember you were never mine maybe that’s the best part Shouldn’t it be easier for me to walk away? all your decisions and actions, lead me astray look back and thing, how could you do me this way.. after all that I’ve done and already been through laying in bed staring outside thinking, what’s a girl to do? can’t tell you how much you’ve hurt me cos it seems like it goes through one ear and out the other this is the last I’m staying with someone who does not treat me like a lover maybe once in my life I can get it right love the right person, don’t have to think twice

Sun bathing

Don't be so hard on yourself

Take.me.away.