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“This is precisely the time when artists go to work. There is no time for despair, no place for self-pity, no need for silence, no room for fear. We speak, we write, we do language. That is how civilizations heal.”

Staying quiet doesn’t mean I’ve nothing to say. It means I don’t think you’re ready to hear my thoughts.

I think the worst type of crying is when you don’t know the reason for your tears but you know you are broken and can’t be fixed

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1. One day you’ll learn that you can’t fill the vacancies in your soul with people alone. Yes, you can occupy your cold bed with your lover’s warm body and the spaces between your fingers with their hands but loneliness just can’t be cured that way — not with something physical anyway. Because no matter how many crowds of people you cram into the windows and doors, an abandoned house is still an abandoned house if the tenant never returns and sometimes, just sometimes, the only person who can save you is yourself. 2. There will be days you will stumble out of your bed, wondering how it’s possible you’re still standing upright when your heavy heart feels like it’ll sink to the ocean floor like dead whales do after the gases that keep them afloat are expelled. But even then, your legs won’t bow out on you and neither will your spine. That’s the world telling you that it hasn’t abandoned you yet. And it never will - unless you give in first. So promise me that you’ll give up giving up on yourself. Please. 3. Sometimes you have to remind yourself that doing something wrong doesn’t make you a terrible person. It only makes you human and there’s absolutely nothing wrong with that. 4. You are my little warrior. So go show them that a victim can be made a victor, that you can tame a pride of lions with a whisper, and trigger avalanches with nothing but a puff of air. 5. After staying up so late that you get to watch the sun bleach the night sky until it’s the palest blue you’ve ever seen, you’ll realize that in those dead silences you don’t need a stethoscope to listen to your heart. 6. When the right boy or girl kisses you and walks away, you’ll feel as if you’ve been killed 150 times over and the lanterns along your spine have been lit up all at the same time. 7. In order to do things properly, sometimes you have to unlearn the wrong way first because old habits die hard. 8. You need to let go of the people who will dissect you only to study the way love works but hold onto those who will gently crack you open like a fortune cookie with odd prophecies and still love you without understanding why.

Concept: It gets better. Your mind quiets down considerably. There are still days when it manages to shout its lies, but you make it past those days every time. Death no longer seems as attractive as before because life has a beauty you never really noticed. The idea of loving yourself is no longer just a thought, it’s reality, and you’re loved too, in whatever way you wish to be. You are worth it, and unlike all of those times in the past, you actually believe it.

My love for you was as deep as the ocean, but you couldn’t see it. You looked at my surface and thought that that was all that’s left of me.

I know you’ll never love me but maybe you’ll stay for awhile.

If I fell in love with you would you promise to be true and help me understand? Because I’ve been in love before and I found that love was more than just holding hands. If I give my heart to you I must be sure from the very start that you would love me more than [them]. If I trust in you, please don’t run and hide. If I love you too, oh please, Don’t hurt my pride like [them]. Because I couldn’t stand the pain ….So I hope you see that I Would love to love you.

I’m in competition with myself and I’m losing.

I’m the colorless sunrise That’s never good enough I’m the wind that’s in your hair That ruffles you up