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Jsut another day in my life
jsut found out about some stuff she deserves to suffer esp after what she did to me holy switch up and if she gets hurt by him im not defending her or helping her since she did the same thing to me idc anymore she deserves that she is an actual loser just like him ofc she would defend my ex and switch up on me
Good thing I earned something okay he missed me and is irritated by me and thinks about me all the time lol loser good you deserve it yes I may have an intention to ruin his perspective of love but I was just bored and I actually did like him but he wanted to mess with me and fulfill his sexual pathetic obsessive desires so I I’ll give him a taste of how it feels to not be loved
See he tells me that he never was loved and I understand now yes I may have told everyone that I wasn’t loved but I was until everyone acted like I murder someone when i jsut broke up with a loser who has attachment issues that is not my type but it’s good to ruin a sensitive boy and besides he has pressure me into doing stuff so he ain’t innocent too
Im not a good person for this but I never said I was I broke up with him bc for the sake of my mental health and it’s getting worse good thing I found something sharp im so happy I thought I was gonna have another panic attack lol
Im not anti social im not sure what that exactly means since im not so educated on disorders, but some people said i was hmm
Anyways I’m aware and I was very aware of my actions and what he had done, I did things for a reasons I left him and I lost feelings for a reason, I have ruined his perspective of love but he gave me a reason to not love anybody and that’s okay, I don’t know how to love anyone correctly, I prefer to be alone helps me think correctly and learn stuff, I was alone for most of my life so im used to the teasing and the lack of my social skills and he was ugly anyways with that big nose and big heart jeez a nightmare
He would interrupt my routine and text me and call 24/7 saying bs about how I was the one who did that
At least im not an inmature lonely loser who watched porn like him LOL JAJA and yes I have watched stuff like taht b4 but I will make fun of him I will leak stuff if he doesthat first I will give him my respect but not my empathy or energy to actually repesct him LOL, see I will damage his reputation and ego and relationship and make him think of me all the time, good his perspective about love is horrid but I have lied to him saying how I would beg and cry for him if he leaves me but I wanted to please him and he calls me desperate when he wants a “freaky hg” what an inmature who lacks morals
And to add the cherry on top he’s implied to be sexist and homophonic and transphobic and made my internalized homophobia way worse
I hate him and I will do anything to make him look like a bad person especially you mimi you love defending guys who force me to send a pic of myself and yes I’ll name drop bc im like that
I don’t know what’s wrong or right anymore, I just choose and presume what’s right or wrong to me, I have my own morals in this sick society, I have a plan and plot I use people im not a good person but I will be better once these people leave me alone I want to be free. I will show and damage people and I will tear and make relationships unstable to get what I want
I have this boredom a rushing euphoria tumbling to me, idk what this is I hate it, and yes I don’t feel guilty or remorse or regret to what I did lol but I kinda miss mimi she was an actual good friend damn and she showed me about empathy we instantly clicked but now she doesn’t bother to responding shit to me ofc she’ll trust him, but in the end I’m right and correct I know so much more and im very knowledgeable and she deserves to suffer good her bf left her for another girl didn’t know about that lol but she deserves it because she wants to make me suffer myself I’ll show her what it really is like to be alone
Now im in huge pain you see. I need to get rid of it, im having frequent panic attacks and im not able to do anything while being frustrated. Im gonna take my own life sooner or later for now ill harm myself it hurts so much, this pain its never going to go away
I live with an abuser who abused me, a bipolar bitch, a adhd guy (and I have no problem with that, another guy who’s implied to be homophonic and minimizing problems defending the bipolar woman
This pain never will go away I guess this is what karma is about
I need to find a solution, I always have one. So I will take my life, I found a sharpener today so excited since the large scicciors are the gonefor some reason they are good for cutting but you have to angled it in a correct curve and I prefer something small
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