I n d o m i t u m

the aroace read of ryland grace is so personal and haunting. "you don't even have a dog." was it not enough to love the world for the sake of living in it. was it not enough to live for the thrill of discovery. was it not enough to smile at your students. was it not enough to be afraid.

"I CANT HANDLE THIS" *handles this*

"I CANT TAKE ANOTHER DAY" *takes another day*

Robby ran in there, worried for his doctor. A heart attack is serious and he cares for his people. He looked frantically at the paperwork, snatched it from her, saw no abnormalities and raced to check her out with a stethoscope himself not trusting anything but his own senses. Then he recognized the signs. A panic attack. And he immediately saw himself in her. He saw how he broke ten months prior and never really pulled himself together. And instead of reacting out of compassion he reacted the same way he reacted to himself. Out of hatred. He treated Samira Mohan, at a very vulnerable moment, the same way he treats himself every day because in that moment she was too similar to himself. And he hates himself enough to contemplate leaving and never returning