pure

sober for so long cravings going strong.

back to square one.

Could you please shut up and let me sleep.

E kad ycgat cu syho desac fro E's ymfyoc rybbo yht E fuimt nabmo po cyoehk dryd E's hud, E's bnupypmo uha uv dra sucd tabnaccat bancuh oui'mm ajan saad, ymuhk fedr y csema. Vummufehk dryd nabmo drao fuimt ycg ruf. Ed'c cesbma, zicd caaehk so lmuca uhac ynuiht sa rybbo sygac sa kahiehamo rybbo, dasbunynemo. E luimth'd lyna macc ypuid socamv.

dopamine dominant.

I lay here waiting, succumbing the thoughts. You have no idea what is going through my mind but yet you think you know what is best for me. I need this right now to get onto the path of ending it. All you are doing is prolonging this pain. You have no fucking idea how much torture this is. I wish you could understand... but then again, wishing that people this weak willed, thick headed and ignorant is just completely wrong. If everyone could just not worry about me it would be a whole lot better.. or at least let me find out on my own.

Sachi is my pride and joy. She'd do anything for me.