hi i’m cal

I LOVE EMISUBA SM FUUUUUUCK 💔💔💔to see them fall in love again and again and again is insane i love experiencing it every season

Like okay. Imagine emilia and beatrice trying to explain to subaru that shes trans meanwhile subaru is like “wtf wtf wtf????” Cuz like she didnt know she had those feelings to begin with (or at least she didnt REALIZE thats what those feelings were)

Its kinda euphoric but its also horrifying because she didnt choose that? Like this was suddenly forced upon her and she hasnt really come to terms with herself yet so man. Its a gender crisis + the already going on identity crisis and actual psychological and physical torture. Cuz this is subaru season 1 who still has the “i need to be like my father” complex. So shes still in complete denial of her identity. She still feels like she has to put on a masculine persona. Might even develop into a further vendetta against “natsuki subaru”… Oh its so good. “Just who were you, natsuki subaru?”

Imagine bangsbaru asking the others to refer to her as a guy and all of them obliging but feeling uncomfortable about it

Asks Emilia, her voice trembling, as Subaru slowly approaches her with his arms open wide.

Subaru closes his eyes.

It feels like he's been yearning for this forever.

Yearning to answer that question in Emilia's presence, forever—.

“—My name is Natsuki Subaru.”

“Su, baru...”

Just hearing that weak call of his name is enough for a flood of emotion to surge through him.

Emotion so great that, by that alone, Subaru is completely satisfied with having come here.

With those feelings in his heart, and praying that he'll finish this sentence without his voice shaking

because of them—

“—Witch Cult Cardinal of Sin, Bishop of PRIDE, Natsuki Subaru!”