Nothing...nothing at all.

Here’s another update; the wait is over, guys! (Ts, as if someone’s waiting for my movie.) I got my new laptop, so I can finish my “masterpiece”. Happy New Year, by the way!

Update on post-production: Ups, something funny happened.

I was working on my edit, when my computer suddenly decided to die on me. Murphy’s law. Boy, am I glad that I have got a backup on my external drive.

What does this mean now? It’ll take me a little more time to get a new computer. I guess I have to walk some extra miles to reach my goal. The only thing that I can do is to keep my head up and to be patient.

Post-production in general was going well so far. It’s a lot of work, but when you see your movie becoming alive on screen for the first time, it totally pays off.

Yes, I can finally call myself a director, according to James Cameron. In other words; I shot something...

As I’d expected it, shooting in a real world, where everyone just keeps going on with what they do in his or her everyday life, was by far the toughest challenge I’d ever tackled. Well, patience was a helpful companion on my bumpy ride. For some reason, my always dead hometown woke up just on time for my shoot.

Despite all those hurdles, I can say that I really enjoyed shooting my first feature. There were so many new lessons to learn! Here’s what pops up in my mind.

When you shoot with a shutterspeed of 1/48 sec, you need a lot of light. I just used everything I found at home.

Some things can sound good on paper, but actually don’t work in real-life.

I have to learn to be more precise with my choice of words, when I try to direct people.

Having a road map is good, but I stopped being so surprised, when unexpected circumstances forced me to take detours. It’s painful, but the alternatives turned out to be much better anyway.

It’s important to stick to your original feelings, but I also kept my mind open for cool new ideas that I can mix with the old ones. I think it’s called “creativity.”

This one’s a no brainer: “Keep your cool!” Easy rule. I take my time to drink, sleep, step back and breath.

Acting is weird. I tried to keep it simple, I just did what I can and what works on me. I am who I am. (I am not Tom Cruise--damn it!)

If I hadn’t had an Iphone available, I would have shot it on my camcorder. I really love the story behind those pictures I shot, it gives me this warm and close feeling. This power will always be there no matter what camera you shoot the pictures on. I guess, Tarantino was right; LOVE is your best skill as a director.

I learned to trust myself. My cinema sense always tingled to warn me. when something wasn’t working.

Even though it’s a very, very small indie project, I tried to be as professional as possible. I did my homework. I made shot lists, I wrote reports, I came up with a business-plan etc. Long story short: I have a real plan.

Okay, let’s finish this post up. Trust your feelings. When your project makes you feel like “If this is my first and last feature film, it’ll be worth it!”, then you’re on the right track.

For me personally, it’s true, it did already pay off.

NOTHING...

(...Nothing at all.)

A school-drop-out spends his time at home watching movies and daydreaming. He’s waiting for the one great idea that will help him to leave home to pursue his dream of becoming a filmmaker.

Yeap, it hits the nail right on the head. It’s a movie about me.

After taking a step back to realize what I have available and what kind of movie I can make out of that, I came to this conclusion. I have to make some kind of self portrait.

It’s gonna be a “documentary” in a narrative concept that follows a confused film nerd on his daily mundane activities over one week before he finally comes up with a film idea.

I have done my homework and now it’s time to start principal photography on my little flick.

One of the biggest challenges will be that I have to place the lens into our everyday life and see what kind of shots I can filter out. I think it’s going to be exciting, but also frustrating at some times, cause I won’t be able to control my environment. I guess, it’s a question of careful observation and luck. (Dear Universe, please don’t make a fool of me this time!)

Marc Aurel once said: „The luck of your life depends on the state of your thoughts.”

Pretty modern words from a roman emperor way back in the 210s, however, he is totally right!

You should consider making it your mantra. It helps me to put aside all those fears and thoughts like: “Am I good enough? What if people are going to think that I’m a fool? Will Spielberg laugh at me?”

Fuck it, guys! You know why? From the way I see it:

It’s okay to be a fool. That’s where you start, okay? Think of Tommy Wiseau; do you think he would be there where he is right now, if he feared to be called a fool?

C’mon guys, it’s time to be realistic! You are not Spielberg. And that’s okay. Spielberg wasn’t always this godlike creature we all know today; he actually was like me and you, a random kid, who loves movies. The thing that stands between us and him is the fact that he started to pay his dues. He started to hone his craft with amateur movies.

Will my first movie be shit? Probably. Will the cinematography look amateurish? I think so. What about the sound? Yeah, that too. Will people say that I should have never touched a camera? Hah! I don’t allow myself to think about that.

In the end, it comes down to one single question?

Will all this stop me from making my movie?

Insert your answer here...

Well, I try to make it short. In summer 2014, it came upon me: I want to become a filmmaker! What an epiphany that was!  Midway through the following school year (the year before my last), I decided to begin my preparations for my future career.  Spielberg already made at least 6 short films . I did nothing more than watching a couple of movies of his.

I knew that I gotta catch up, so from then on I put all my free time into my film studies. Unfortunately, as fate would have it, I got ill. It was so bad, that I was forced to take time off from school. So in 2016, I left school without my graduation papers, which means no film school.

Let me make something clear: The diploma is important kids! After my recovery and some time to find out what I have and and what I want to do with it (I will come to that in the following part of this post.) I was ready to go back to school and to get my diploma in 2021.

I soon made my first short film (https://youtu.be/_2jGO51-B7A), participated at film courses, made some gigs, and wrote scripts…

Till my money from past summer jobs was gone. Okay, a day job would solve the money problem, but what about my plan to become a director?   Where was I going with all this? What do I really want to do?

To learn the craft of filmmaking, you have to make films. And hell yeah! I want to make films! I want to tell stories! I want to cooperate! The problem was; I’m located somewhere in the southwest of Germany and as a film dude, there is nothing to do here, nothing at all. I couldn’t find fellow collaborators. It seems that the movie nerds don’t live around here. A career in film is a fantasy in the eyes of the reasonable youngsters in this desert.

There was only one thing I could do: I had to start my own project.

My first attempt totally failed. I wrote a script, I did my homework and I knew everything about my project.

The mistake: I wrote a script that I couldn’t realize on my own. Filmmaking depends on teamwork. What if you can’t gather a team?

Of course, I was angry and frustrated at the same time, but I eventually learned my lesson. I can’t wait till somebody else says “yes.”

Why? It’s because I fell out of my pram and was sent to a place far away called cinema. Did you get it?...Uh...alright...forget it. (That’s a photo of me looking cool, by the way.)

Hey, my name is Omid and I’m just doing it. Yeah really. Shia finally convinced me. As God...or the universe...or just you are my witness, I will make my first feature film.

Yes, you’re right. I am an amateur, but I’m going to do it anyway, because, well, you gotta start somewhere!

I want to find it out, once and for all, if James Cameron was right:

“Pick up a camera. Shoot something. No matter how small, no matter how cheesy, no matter whether your friends and your sister star in it. Put your name on it as a director. Now you are a director. Everything after that you’re just negotiating your budget and your fee.”

Sounds easy, right? I know. It takes so much more, but don’t worry. I did my homework (more about that in a later post).