mutt

wishing i was normal and could actually communicate with him directly

if you wanna understand me then literally just listen to ethel cain

i feel like i can only express myself sexually to him but every time i do im scared that he thinks im just using him for his body. how do i tell him how obsessed i am no glue no borax omfg

i wanna be disgustingly romantic with him but i dont know how he actually feels about me im so scared he only wants to be friends with benefits and nothing more because i just cant do that

wishing i was having my head pressed into my pillow rn and hearing him whimper behind me every time he thrusts

i wish i wasnt an obsessive freak and i could just be normal about him but no, i just get jealous and mad at him over nothing all the time. fuck my stupid mutt life

crying to the point of screaming and dry heaving. anyways who wants to kiss me

literally nothing that happened today was even remotely worse than just being a mild inconvenience so why do i want to shoot myself so badly and why am i screaming and crying???