‧̍̊˙˚˙ᵕ꒳ᵕ˙˚˙not pro anything but recovery ˙˚˙

I’m scared I won’t be able to lose more weight without my mom catching on because she always asked me doctor if it was healthy for me to go plant based and my doctor told he I was “too young” to be cutting out full food groups... THAT DO NOTHING FOR ME. I hate feeling like I’m not in control of my body😪😪

My mom keeps making comments about my body n my eating habits,, this morning she told me I’ve looked “really thin lately” and keeps saying all the food in the house is going to waste because I “don’t eat anymore” and just things like that so all this week I’ve been skipping lunch so I can eat when I get home without being worried abt going over my cal limit and it just makes me so upset when she makes comments but I feel like I’m absolutely pigging out and it’s still not enough for her to get off my ass. I know she keeps saying things to make me stop being vegan bc it really bothers her for some reason but If I’m going to quit I’m going to do it because I want to not bc she’s a cuck. I can’t wait until I move out.

I’m at my lowest weight, my hair has gotten so long, my skin has cleared up; literally everything i was hoping would make me like myself more but lately I’ve felt so ugly n not like myself :( like I knew it was unrealistic to think all that would magically fix everything but part of me was still hoping it would. I think I just need to go shopping bc It’s gotten to that point in the school year where I’m rewearing outfits almost everyday and I hate doing that so maybe I just need something new