Ken's bro. Inside.

remember when we almost broke up because of a girl from your past who called you “bebe”? or when zayn malik left one direction and we fought over his reasons? remember when you hit the breaks too soon, twenty stitches in a hospital room? when you started crying, baby, i did too. when the sun came up, i was looking at you. remember when we couldn’t take the heat? i walked out and said i’m setting you free and the monsters turned out to be just trees? when the sun came up, you were looking at me. remember when we found out that we both loved and adored taylor swift?

i remember saying “unbelievable” a week before today and i remember you saying “no it’s not”. i know where you were coming from. i knew it meant how sure you are about not leaving me but you must also know where i was coming from. this is something i thought i am not able to do - make a relationship last. i know it’s still too early to say this because it’s just one year compared to other couples who after ten years of being together still broke up. it’s still too early to talk this way because we still have a lot to learn and experience together or while physically apart. i know it takes two to tango but if not for your patience and understanding, we would not still be where we are now. if not for pacifying my fears and demons, we would not reach a year of being together. i have learned through you that i can be not destructive and paranoid if my partner is honest, truthful and loyal.