Issues and Errors

Sometimes I mourn the kids we could have been

Also I got sexually harassed at the place we went for board games and i was tired and I wanted to go back to the hotel and read and I forgot my ear buds and I didn't have a ride so I had to stay and play games. And I really wanted to cry for a second there about it. I dont regret not retreating because we had fun but aaahhhh scary.

The comforting part of this above anything is just that ******* was there and she and I are such good friends actually. She makes me feel like a normal human person and not weird thank god for her. Yeah random girl judged me but ******* ********* thinks im fin and chill and whimsical and visibly queer and ***** thinks my hair is pretty so this could all be the insecurity talking. Maybe i came off as a nerdy long haired butch.

Also the vibes were very cis woman now that I think about it and I wonder if my nonbinary was just showing. Cause im one of 3 she/theys there and idk if she/they 1 is nonbinary but Im pretty sure she/they 2 isn't and so maybe I was just reminded of how I dont really feel safe around cis women in general especially skinny cis women who are gender conforming. Like im not hot or they enough to be cool nonbinary and not fem enough to be a cool nerd. I know where I fall and its with the fat nerdy women who are vaguely mormon. I know my people they play dnd.