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And now I'm questioning my own sex drive and whether it's healthy or not

My boyfriend pressures me for sex multiple times a day. If I gave in, it was physically draining. If I put my foot down, it was mentally draining (because he would be whiny and just hover over me)

The unfortunate thing is that sex was actually good, but his entitlement really ruined everything. Over time, not only did I not have the space to initiate it, but I just didn't need it very much

Reflecting on my previous relationships, I never really fucked that much in a day. And tbh, I got bored w my previous 2 partners sexually cus dick was not big enough and they also didn't last long. Honestly, I view myself as a fleshlight in all my relationships and because of this, i am far from turned on. The relationship I'm in now, is actually some of the best sex I've had. But again, he really had to go and ruin that by being a rapey piece of shit.

Sex work has without a doubt influenced my sex drive. It's VERY hard to not view relationships and sex as transactional. The question is always " what am I getting out of this?" Because it's really hard for me to find men my age who puts in effort that is worth my sexual energy. And none of my partner's have really done there part to keep me happy. Maybe except one, but he was very emotionally needy which is just as draining.

All in all, now I don't know if somethings wrong with me or if sex work is to blame or if most men are truly just selfish and pieces of shit. Because when I talk to my friends outside of sex work, they have sex drives that kind of match my current bf, and speaking to them about it makes me feel a little bad, *almost* as if I've been depriving my bf but Jesus, once a day is honestly more than enough and u should be grateful.

I just don't know if I'm ever going to be in a relationship where sex won't be an issue. I have a hard time viewing sex as a way of bonding and showing love. The way I see it, is it's all about men. And their pleasure. And I don't really want them to touch me. I hate when they insist on pleasing me but it's actually for THEM, not me.

This is so important. 👆 

Rep. Ayanna Pressley (D-Mass.) proposed legislation to decriminalize sex work as part of a sweeping resolution she introduced aimed at revolutionizing the criminal justice system. The People’s Justice Guarantee includes proposals to combat mass incarceration by expanding access to restorative justice, ending the cash-bail system, implementing minimum sentences, terminating solitary confinement and ending the death penalty. The U.S. “has a moral obligation to meet its foundational promise of guaranteed justice for all,” the bill reads. 

Notably, the resolution also includes a clause calling to decriminalize sex work, which is often a byproduct of discrimination, poverty and/or addiction. “Two principles of the People’s Justice Guarantee are safety and dignity ― both of which are compromised for consensual sex workers,” Pressley told HuffPost. “Sex work is work. In fact, sex work is often the only form of work for certain marginalized communities who are most vulnerable to housing and employment discrimination.” 

you feel sensual and are ready to rejuvenate - you step into your clawfoot bathtub that’s full of rose petals, lavender oil, and pink salt

you’re wandering Paris - the sky looks like cotton candy, the Eiffel Tower is starting to twinkle, and there’s a fresh raspberry macaron in your hand

you’ve stumbled upon a fairy garden - the fairies whisper sweet compliments into your ears and sprinkle their dust atop your hair

there’s an extravagant ball tonight - you’re a princess, dressed in a beautiful gown and delicate tiara, and have just been asked to dance

you’re walking in New York City - you’re wearing your favorite silk dress and heels, lightly buzzed on rosé, hailing a taxi for a night out

it’s the early 2000s - you’re in your bedroom with your best friends, gossiping about your crush and wearing baby pink Juicy Couture

the afternoon is hazy - you’re having a picnic with your lover on a soft blanket, surrounded by wildflowers, the air is full of pink lemonade and kisses

This newest exhibit of the Paris Zoological Park, which goes on display to the public on Saturday, has no mouth, no stomach, no eyes, yet it can detect food and digest it.

The blob also has almost 720 sexes, can move without legs or wings and heals itself in two minutes if cut in half.

“The blob is a living being which belongs to one of nature’s mysteries”, said Bruno David, director of the Paris Museum of Natural History, of which the Zoological Park is part.

“It surprises us because it has no brain but is able to learn (...) and if you merge two blobs, the one that has learned will transmit its knowledge to the other,” David added.

Ed Sheeran does have struggles and he’s been through some rough shit.

because you’ve got the inside view. 

see, you see all your nasty thoughts as they pass by. you feel all those mean impulses; you catch every terrible thing you think about a friend, you have to watch yourself procrastinate on important stuff and be lazy when you feel like you should be working. you get front-row seats to all the awfulness that comes with being a person. and you only get that view of yourself, not of anyone else. so naturally, since you can’t see all the internal flaws in everyone else, it seems like they don’t have them–but you do. 

the secret is that everyone has those flaws. 

if being a good person is something you strive for–if you keep those nasty thoughts inside your head instead of directing them at other people, if you support your friends instead of pushing them down, if you try your best at what you do–then i promise you, you’re a good person. and even if you fail at that stuff sometimes, all it takes to be a good person is to keep trying. 

there’s nothing any more bad about you than there is about loads of other people. 

ask your friends if you’re a good person–when it comes to things like this, they probably see you more clearly than you do yourself. trust them. if they say ‘yes, of course’ then you’ll know you don’t have to worry. if they say no, you can ask them why, and then strive to change those things about yourself.

just remember that if it seems like everyone else is a better person than you, it’s only because you can’t see what’s happening inside them. trust me–everyone struggles to do the right thing sometimes. even steve.  

Last night was almost too good to be true. There was a significant lack of masc men at the party. As I was about to head out with my tail between my legs I walk in to say goodbye, I see 5 girls I had met earlier and my friend who throws these parties all taking turns with a hitachi, like a reverse circle jerk but so much more adorable.

Like wow the fact that the stars aligned enough to put us all in the same room was a true blessing.