I was lazy, but lazy never felt right when I heard that, when I said that to myself, ‘Oh, you’re lazy.’ It wasn’t that I was lazy, I was just really afraid; I was really afraid of failing. All my life I’d been precocious and I was supposed to be smart and I was supposed to be creative, and I think hearing those things makes you scared that you’re gonna do something stupid or do something uninteresting and no one will see you as smart or creative anymore. I’d never been given any credit for being hard-working or being, you know, diligent or anything, so all my credits were based in these attributes that I had no control over. It’s like being tall… Like, congratulations, you’re tall. It’s nothing you can even get excited about. So, I realized that I’d kind of like been so afraid of failing and looking bad that I didn’t do anything, that I just did nothing, you know? And I could claim some sort of safety in doing nothing.

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