An anti Joysparklebs blog

I wanted to wait to post more (and I’ve been really busy), but I want to address some stuff that will come up in the chats that are being released. First off though I think Joy did manipulate Angel, but Angel did her own shit talking about me, now that I have seen most of the chats between her and joy. I want to clear some things up with everything. First off I’ve talked about being a member of Eidiots and briefly about lolcow on my other blog when shit was going down with EO and them. Though I try not to talk about lolcow on this platform (I feel it’s like fight club and you don’t talk about it) some of this will fall around it so needs to be mentioned.

During our anti O chats that Joy and Angel were appart of (some regulars of chat I talked to a long time outside of the chat) I did bring these groups up (again this was during the EO thing), Joy knew day one I was a lurker of the farm (and so were the regulars of the chat). In one of those chats I made a joke to my friend about Eidots having a post about the farm needing mods and that many of us have also been known to lurk there (small world), I joked maybe I should “try out” (I do not want to be a mod anywhere, it was a joke). I guess this was during Angel eavesdropping us because when she talked to Joy in the skype chats it turned into me being some top person on lolcow or something (I’m not, I’m mainly a lurker, this will come up again) when she told Joy.

This rant is kinda a hard one for me. I want to preface this with something for those that haven’t been around my blog long; the whole reason I got into “onision drama” over 7 years ago is because I had just gotten out of my greg like ex, that did give me PTSD. I’ll get into this in a bit but the other thing I wanted to say is that I wish Angel no harm. She did make an apology for this and is said to be getting the help she needs, and I hope she is. Unlike konstigo,who was just a normal fan with little interaction with greg, I’m not bluring her name however because she put herself more on the lainey scale, because of her interactions. It’s import for your story to be told and I don’t want you to be nameless, I’m glad you have spoke up like you have (tim too!).

With that out of the way let’s get down to business. For those who don’t know the story behind this (and these are not the full caps, you cam look for those yourself) sometime around march one of joysparklebs fans began to doubt her and talked to a guy that knew her a long time. He had ptsd, that joy knew about. He then felt bad for thinking that joy was manipulating him and sent another fan he was close to messages about his doubt and everything before confessing to joy. They (mainly Angel as shown) jumped down his throat about PTSD and then someone sent him those messages in the last screen shot. Let that sink in, they purposely triggered a man with PTSD, they shoot down his explanation from the get go with shitty logic (something angel now says joy was on skype at the time telling her what to say, but sorry I take that with a grain of salt from you). Getting back into my past as to why this ~triggers~ me and puts you in the “as bad as onision” catogory (joy). I lurked the anti o community for years before I joined, I came to love everyone really involved because as onision-needs-to-stop put so well lately, we all had a past with an onision like person, we are all passionate about helping others. This community helped me have the strength to have a voice, and I hold it very dear. As I said before this voice is of a person with PTSD.

I don’t know Tim’s story, I don’t need to. I have a feeljng his PTSD is a lot like mine, someone, somewhere in his life had control over him. For me it was my greg ex. I also got what people recovering from these types of relationships call fleas ( traits of the narc/abuser you pick up, often out of survival). My Greg controled everythjng I did, down to how much time I spent on the internet, to who I talked to. Though I was totally into a poly relationship, he manipulated us and pit us against each other. He was also telling me I was always wrong or what I liked was bad so everything was very confusing at the time for me. And that’s why I don’t fault any of gregs exs, or angel, because I know what it’s like to have your brain fucked with.

Like Tim probably experiences (he says he’s in therapy so that’s a big step, I’m going to be talking about my past untreated self) I often have doubt in the people around me. Sometimes it’s really unnecessary, but sometimes not, because people like joy and onision exist. The people that feed off the people they deem as weak. I too have had many toxic friendships because people will take advantage of your compassion, you have to become better at telling people apart, and learn from mistakes. Like I said though I also ruined many good friendships/relationships because I was use to abuse and had fleas. When I started to ~recover~ I apologized to the important ones, some forgave, some didn’t. I don’t dwell on it and no one should, you’re becoming a better person than your past. The way this was handled is sickening. That joy influences this on someone she knows has PTSD, and claims she has it too, it’s no excuse. PTSD comes in all different types and degrees. Even 4 people won’t have the same experience. I just can’t even. This is what she is projecting onto her “close audience”. For a person that claims they want to help they sure do hurt a lot of people… oh and $$$. She said recently that she’s not telling her audience to do vicious things, no not your bigger audience, but as angel and a few others have shown, the close few you do. The people you can manipulate the most.

This goes beyound basic “kys” comments, this is harassment. I don’t know where Tim is in recovery, but I know at my worst point, those messages would of caused a lot of harm to me. And people look up to you.

At first this post was going to be a onision manipulation of friends post, then a mix of joy and onision, but now I think my first big post on this topic will be mainly joy. I didn’t want to muck up a anti O blog with too much Joy stuff, but she has made it easier to explain; also a lot of what onision does is similar so I’ll try to sprinkle that in as well. So for those that don’t know Joy and this girl Angel were friends that were also apart of the anti O chat. They had a falling out about the time I confirmed joys full of bullshit, angel posted a lot of things (including proof she had angel spying on our chat for info) as well as a lot of her manipulation. Though I did reach out to Angel to talk recently she declined, and that’s cool, though she has done some shitty things I think a lot of it comes from fleas she got from her sister and Joy too. Though I have hard feelings with Angel and know she had been manipulated not to like me, I feel the same of her as I do Lainey. I also want to thank her for letting me use her name in all this and not be anonymous, her story is important, she is a person that was hurt by Joy in a really real way. I will also ask others not to too harshly judge the things she’s done and to not contact her about this. So first screen cap, when Angel started releasing things this was the first big manipulation thing I saw. With recent events with Joy being defensive about the word “disabled” only verifies this to me. For those that don’t know I like to study NLP, so when manipulators use certain language it makes me perk up. Some back story on to why Joy is saying what she is, lolcow had started posting some real deal shit she had done in her past (I have screeb caps of her freaking out about this stuff) and originally at least Angel went over to lolcow and posted false things to throw people off. She also needs to demonize lolcow, something she’s still doing to deflect from her real drama today, so when people find some stuff she can call them haters and mean liars so fans will pitty her and take her side, not believing anything ~haterz~ say (hello onision). I’ll get back to this later. Anyway back to the meat of this screen cap. Joys trying to demonize the cows, she’s making the word “disabled” to be something horrible that it’s not. Disabled is not an insult, it’s a description, and when you use people that are disabled it should be noted. She then puts herself higher than these people “I’d never say that about you!!“and laying it on hard when at first Angel doesn’t "see the truth”, really wanting to be seen as the bigger person, the more trustworthy person. A moutain outta a mole hill. Also I know you think I’m some big person in lolcows angel, or that I started your thread. I’m sad to say I didn’t, I’m mainly a lurker, and only really contribute to like 4 threads, none of which have been yours, or anyone else’s I think don’t deserve what they get because of manipulation. Notice I didn’t post my convo with Billie on cows, or Konstigo, that’s because I respect them, and I want no harm to them, same with you. So onward onto why this conflicts with today Joy, which shows the manipulation more. In a livestream recently Joy made fun of a disabled girl, now she hasn’t been saving her livestreams, but there’s some valdaridity to it, but this isn’t even about that so you can look for all that stuff on your own. No this is about her defending herself in another livestream, in this recent stream she said something along the lines of “being afraid to use the word disabled cause people will take it out of context”, but joy, just a couple months ago YOU were taking it out of context and saying it was a horrible thing when you were trying to demonize people. Joy has been telling people to come to her if they have issues (though things like her dms are closed), she down talks people talking behind her back, well joy, you were pretty buddy buddy with me on various platforms (yt, skype, etc.) sometimes not knowing it was me. You praised me for being knowledgeable and acted like a “friend” all while talking behind my back (“vivica being weird again”) and eavesdropping to get info for vids so you could make money, that’s pretty back stabby. I like how you will talk about the fake drama in your chat, some of which was of your creation to throw people off joy, but when I come to your chat with real issue it’s all “let’s talk private”. I also like when I was first in your chat (with another anti O blog person) calling you out on things and you asked how I got my Info and I name dropped angel you started more or less bad mouthing her, this from a person who says they “love and respect all their past friends”. Also cue second screen cap, this is how you talk about ex friends. This is how you down grade a person with PTSD (the guy they triggered from my last joy post) to manipulate people on to your side. You were telling angel he was nuts because he talked to your ex friend of 10 years, whom has real shit on you, and was starting to think you manipulated him. I feel so fucking bad for Tim it’s not even funny. You joy are a horrible person.