dear diary... || anton lee
βͺ synopsis: when two close friends slowly blur the line between friendship and something more, they decide to keep their relationship a secret to avoid making things awkward in their tight friend group. what they donβt expect is how impossible it is to act normal when one of them is painfully obvious about being in love, and the other keeps getting caught hiding under beds, in closets, and in car meetups just to survive being around everyone elseβ¦
βͺ genre: fake texts, smau, one!shot au, non!idol, fluff, secret relationship + writing below
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date: october 14, 2025
location: antonβs apartment
mood: hiding under beds again
dear diary, i think dating anton is slowly shortening my lifespan, not because of HIM specifically but because our friends apparently think his apartment is a public park. like today i was laying in his bed while he played music and rubbed my back all sweetly when suddenly his phone buzzed: βbro open the doorβ, i have never seen anton move faster in my life. this boy looked at me with genuine FEAR in his eyes and whispered βbaby under the bed RIGHT NOWβ LIKE???? so there i was. laying under anton leeβs dusty bed listening to him try to casually talk to sohee while texting me apologies every 30 seconds and mind you i could SEE his feet pacing from under the bed because he was nervous. but dude the worst part was sohee randomly saying βwhy does it smell nice in hereβ. i almost actually died
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date: november 3, 2025
location: antonβs apartment
mood: hiding in closets now apparently
dear diary, new development in my horrible secret relationship: the closet is now my secondary hiding location!!!! because apparently antonβs bed frame is built for tiny victorian children and i smacked my head trying to crawl out last week:( but except the closet somehow became worse. today sungchan came over unexpectedly while i was at antonβs place and anton shoved me into the closet with my bag and shoes like i was evidence at a crime scene (will argue with him about this laterβ¦) then fuckass sungchan stayed for TWO HOURS. TWO. and u best believe vi was texting anton from inside the closet threatening violence because dude i felt like i was going to die from how bad my knees were hurting omg. also i almost got exposed because sungchan tried opening the closet looking for hoodies, i physically held the door shut while anton yelled βNO NOT THAT ONEβ. he sounded so suspicious i genuinely dont know how they still havent figured us out but again sungchan is stupid so it makes sense
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date: january 9, 2026
location: riize dorm living room
mood: wonbin count your days
dear diary, park wonbin will be cursed for generations. he has ruined my life all because he casually mentioned he saw βsomething suspiciousβ on my phone and NOW EVERYONE THINKS I HAVE A SECRET BOYFRIEND, which yes obviously i do, BUT THEY DONT KNOW ITS ANTON and somehow this turned the entire group into detectives
today they accused:
β a random guy who commented on my post
β a barista
β someone who held the door open for me
β literally a cashier
meanwhile my actual boyfriend was sitting beside me acting normal while secretly texting, βwhy do they think u like him:(β BABY HE HANDED ME A STRAW IDK???????????????
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date: march 11, 2026
location: some stupid party
mood: maybe i AM jealous
dear diary, i need anton to stop being attractive immediately because tonight genuinely irritated me. bro we were at this party with everyone and i was already trying very hard to act normal and not stare at my own boyfriend every five seconds when some girl started talking to him, which would've been fine if she wasnβt so obviously flirting. and anton, being anton, looked painfully uncomfortable the entire time, like smiling politely while slowly backing himself into a corner because he genuinely never knows how to reject people without feeling bad. i was watching from across the room with sungchan and sohee and the more flustered anton looked, the more annoyed i got!! especially because this girl KEPT touching his arm while talking and mind you anton looked like he wanted to evaporate. then i saw her ask for his phone and something inside me snapped a little. before i even fully processed what i was doing, i walked right over there and grabbed antonβs arm. like FULL girlfriend mode and said βthere u areβ and then i looked at the girl and smiled all sweetly, βsorry iβve been looking for my boyfriend everywhereβ
THE LOOK ON ANTONβS FACE
because suddenly sungchan and sohee, who had followed behind me because theyβre nosy, were both staring at us weirdly. especially after anton instinctively put his hand on my waist without thinking which made everything look ten times worse. the girl got embarrassed immediately and apologized before leaving and the SECOND she walked away i dropped antonβs arm and went βokay well that solved thatβ βi only did that because anton looked awkwardβ βshe wouldnt leave him aloneβ βi was helpingβ (millions of excuses i started to say) and anton just kept smiling at me in the most annoying way possible. like this was the greatest thing that had ever happened to him. anyway if we get exposed because i fake-claimed my own boyfriend at a party iβm blaming anton entirely
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date: may 12, 2026
location: antonβs car
mood: this feels illegal
dear diary, antonβs car is basically our second home now, which tbh i do like but at the same time it makes me feel dirty and weird whenever i sneak into his car during any event where our friends are around. i feel like hes my boss and im his assistant but he's married with 5 kids but he doesn't like his wife so he's cheating on her with me so we sneak around and his car somehow became our 5-star hotel yk? ANYWAYS as i was saying, every single party ends the same way as one of us texts βwanna leave?β and then we sneak out separately like criminals before meeting in the parking lot. tonight i got into his car and before i could even close the door properly he pulled me into his lap because apparently pretending not to touch me for three hours felt illegal????? we stayed there talking and kissing for so long our phones started exploding with texts asking where we disappeared to. i honestly think everyone already knows and theyre just waiting for us to admit it
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date: june 22, 2026
location: roadtrip bathroom floor
mood: emotionally suffering
dear diary, idk why i thought this stupid roadtrip was going to be amazing but omg newsflash, I AM SUFFERING SO BADDDDD. currently hiding in the bathroom as i write this because i need to rant to someone and the person i usually rant to, anton, is sleeping in a completely different room than me ughhhh. but anyways i think anton is suffering emotionally (so am i but i think he's REAAALLY suffering) which would be funny if he didnt keep looking at me like a kicked puppy every time i avoid sitting next to him but i HAVE to because wonbin literally watches us like a federal investigator. today i sat next to shotaro in the car and anton looked genuinely heartbroken, he tried pretending he didnt care but then shotaro put his arm around me jokingly and anton looked away SO FAST. wonbin definitely noticed btw i saw him smirking in the mirror. this trip is going to kill us.
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date: june 24, 2026
location: hotel room
mood: one step from exposure
dear diary, sharing a hotel room with your secret boyfriend should honestly qualify as psychological warfare because why is anton being dramatic over not cuddling for ONE DAY, and mind you we are sharing the same room WITH TWO OF THE GUYS????? tonight he texted me from the couch saying that he misses me, mind you we've been together all day dude. but i am a woman at the end of the dayβ¦. so i told him to just wait for everyone to fall asleep and he can come cuddle with me. lets see how that goesβ¦
dear diary, I ALMOST KILLED ANTON THIS MORNING.
last night he snuck into my bed and immediately attached himself to me like a koala complaining nonstop about how difficult it was pretending not to love me publicly all day, and this morning i woke up because sungchan was already awake and anton was STILL asleep holding onto me i was literally shoving him whispering βGET UPβ and this man PULLED ME BACK DOWN and mumbled βfive more minutesβ
five more minutes until we both get EXPOSED maybe. but when he did eventually get up sungchan asked why we were cuddling and omg dude my heart felt like it was going to explode, but luckily anton came up with a lie saying how the room was cold and blah blah. i deadass thought we were done for cause bro THE ROOM WAS COLD????? but ofc sungchan took his word for it and agreeded that the room was cold. bless his soul.
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date: june 30, 2026
location: my bedroom floor
mood: they know.
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