Do you ever wish there was someone out there who knew exactly how you were feeling? Who could put it into words when you can’t? Who can help you pinpoint exactly what you need and what is right for you? I wish someone could understand how I feel. Hell I wish I could understand how I feel. I am in such a weird place. I’m on the edge, and one side is him and the other side isn’t. And choosing anything but him makes every inch of my body ache so why am I not jumping? Why am I not just letting myself fall into you like I so easily did before? What changed? In one week, one overwhelming week, what changed? Do I still love you? I think so. Do I still want to be with you? I think so. Do I still want to do life with you? I think so. But why just think? Why don’t I know anymore. I was completely ready to say yes to a future with you and now I’m unsure. But like ofcourse I was a future with you right? Right? Like what changed my mind? I don’t even understand. I can’t put this into words because I have no idea how I’m feeling. I don’t wanna lose you. But do I want to be with you? But the thought of being without you kills me....I’m so confused. I don’t know what to do to understand my feelings and how to cope with them.