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First a few words about this blog. I had a blog titled “finnish-interracialist” before but I deleted it when Tumblr enforced their non-NSFW policy. However, I wanted to keep blogging but Tumblr alternatives didn’t work for me so I decided to make a new Tumblr blog with a bit more toned down content. This introduction is from my “finnish-interracialist” blog in case you have come across it somewhere else. I had this same post also on my previous blog, which was also deleted, this time by Tumblr. So there might be previous versions still floating around as reblogs. I did not steal it, it’s my writing with little variations!

I started my porn watching “career” years ago with mainly lesbian porn. I liked sensual and erotic movies that for example Viv Thomas produced. As time went by I transitioned to regular white girl / white guy porn. I liked basic stuff like Brazzers and Reality Kings. There was interracial porn at the time but in my opinion it was of poor quality: fish eye lenses, “gonzo” style porn with no story lines etc. So I didn’t really watch it at all.

Then one day happened something which would change my porn taste forever and have huge impact on me: Blacked.com was launched.

I came across the site one regular evening as I was reading porn discussions on Freeones forum. In one thread someone mentioned this new interracial porn focused site and praised it production quality. I clicked the link which took me to Blacked.com site. I immediately noticed that this wasn’t your regular interracial porn site. The girls they had were amazing. They were blonde, young, beauties with toned down natural makeup. Classic girl next door type. Black guys were muscular, tall, handsome and very, very well endowed. Production quality of the videos and photos on the site was top notch. The site was still quite new and had a only a handful of scenes. They had trailers of each scene and I started going through them. Some of them I watched several times. I kept watching them and browsed preview pictures of the scenes for quite a while. Then I thought, why not give this a try. If I grew tired of it, I could cancel the subscription. No big deal. So I pulled credit card from my wallet and made the subscription. Just a few clicks and I was member at Blacked.com. I picked up my laptop and went  to bed and started watching the scenes.

First scene I picked was Jillian Janson’s Blacked debut, which was also second video released on the site.

Jillian played the role of a girl who was about to go to a job interview. However, her white boyfriend wasn’t very nice to her. He kept complaining about her “slutty” clothes and how long the interview would take. She looked very pretty and innocent with her youthful looks. Just like a girl you would happily present to your parents.

Her future boss in the story was older black man who knew his way around women. From the onset the scene was different than what I had gotten used to. The male talent was quite different physically compared to myself. On the other hand, our star’s boyfriend I could identify (physically, I don’t think myself as a jerk like he was in the story!). So if I wanted to find parallels to my life in this video, I would be placed as an outsider, making her and her black lover the main focal points. When Jillian sees her lovers huge cock, she is amazed and compliments him how he is three times bigger than her boyfriend and he can’t compare to him. When they start having sex, her lover takes from the back. As he thrust his massive black cock inside her, Jillian moans in pleasure how much better he is than her boyfriend. I had never seen   interracial porn that good and hot. It was intense. It felt real. Jillian’s light skin against her lover’s dark skin looked so beautiful. So… right. It didn’t take long until my hand instinctively wandered down to rub my crotch. And from there, it didn’t take long until I had my underwear around my knees and I was stroking myself. In the end when her lover came on her face, I came really hard all over myself. I had to lay down for a while to catch my breath and wait for my pulse to slow down.

I got up from my  bed and went to bathroom to clean myself. In the bathroom I looked myself in the mirror and pondered on what I had just experienced. The experience was so intense that it felt almost scary. For a moment I thought I should cancel the subscription, close my laptop’s lid   and go to sleep. If I had done that I might not be writing this. However, instead of doing that, I picked a roll of paper towels and  went back to my room and clicked play on Scarlet Red’s scene.

She was again very beautiful looking girl. Blonde, pretty eyes, beautiful face, fair skin. Classic “girl from a good family” type.

Seeing her scene proved to have quite an influence on me as I later learned. She played the role of a school girl whose neighbor, a black guy, was playing loud music which made her studying impossible. So she goes to ask if he could turn it down but things take another turn when he seduces her despite her initial reluctance.

Watching him seduce her, wearing down her defenses was amazingly intense and erotic. Scarlet resembled very much one girl from school who I really liked. That resemblance made the experience even more intense. In the scene, she tells her lover that his cock is ten times bigger than her boyfriend and so  big that she doesn’t know if she can fit it in her. Latter question is soon answered when he takes her in multiple positions. When her loves gropes her under her panties and her reluctance fades away, it looked so insanely erotic that I already came once before they had even started having sex!

After Scarlet I moved on to watch Marry Lynn’s scene.

Marry, again very beautiful young woman who could easily be a mainstream model,  played the role of a married woman whose husband has a fantasy that she has sex with another man. She is reluctant but eventually agrees to give it a thought. Later, she tells her husband that she’s ready to do it. Her husband is thrilled, but to his surprise, she says she wants do it with a black man she met at the gym. His husband, seeming slightly hesitant, agrees if it is what she wants. After that we see Marry bringing  her black lover home.

They start making out in the living room and she releases his massive cock from his pants.   Her husband comes to watch but Marry puts him into his place by saying   that he stays in the living room while she takes him to the bedroom. Again, the scene was made about the girl and her lover. While her husband in a sense initiated their encounter, she ditched him. She didn’t need him looming around. She wanted to focus into two of them.

In the bedroom as they are having sex, Marry tells him that his cock is huge and that she’s never had anything so big. In the end, she confesses to her lover that her husband cannot fuck him like that, which reminded me again   of the recurring theme of black men being better lovers.

After Marry, I clicked Emily Kae’s scene playing. Like girls before her, she was very beautiful. She had fair skin and blonde, golden hair.

This was the first scene with two black men. She played the role of a real estate agent who is showing a house to a buyer, a black man, who is accompanied by his friend, another black man.

Her customer senses that she is tense and asks if her boyfriend cannot satisfy her. She is reluctant and dismisses his questions trying to stay professional but eventually admits to him that it has been while since he has given her a good fucking. Her customer then proceeds to seduce   her and quickly wears down her defenses. When he pushes her down on her knees in front of him and lowers his pants revealing his massive black cock, she watches it in amazement and tells it’s twice the size of  her boyfriends’. He gently puts his hand on her head and guides her head closer to take it in her mouth. The sight of that was amazing. Soon his friend joins in and they together gave her what her boyfriend could not.

After that, I watched Jillian Janson’s second scene, which was also with two black men.

I really liked her first scene and the second might have been even   better. Again she looked stunning. Pretty, innocent, blonde girl next door. As in her first scene, her boyfriend is a total dick.

However, two nice black guys come to her rescue.

They take her inside leaving her grumpy boyfriend outside and in no time she is standing between them while they kiss, fondle and undress her while she, clearly excited, keeps telling that she cannot believe what’s happening and that her boyfriend is just outside.

At the same time, it’s clear she doesn’t want them to stop. It looked amazing when she sits between her lovers on a sofa and she strokes their cocks admiring how big they are. One of the guys says that “I know your boyfriend can’t compare so don’t worry about him.. make sure we get it right”, to which she says “no need to worry”. She couldn’t completely wrap her fingers around their cocks which accented their massive size even further. Then she proceeds to suck their cocks and after that the guys undress her and three of them have sex on a couch. It looked so amazing. Jillian looked perfect between those black men.

Then I clicked sequel to Scarlet Red’s first scene playing.

Seeing  Scarlet, who I already mentioned resembled one girl I was interested in, got me excited right away (even I had already came several times at this point). In the beginning she is with her boyfriend, who was mentioned in the first scene. Scarlet is in mood for sex but he rudely refuses her erotic advances.

Suddenly her neighbor we met in the first scene texts her and invites her over which she accepts, telling her boyfriend that she’s going out. She goes to her neighbor who is waiting with his friend. Away are the reluctance and doubts from the first scene and she immediately starts kissing with the men.

The men undress her and fondle her, unbuttoning her shirt and groping her firm young breasts. It was again extremely exciting to watch her pale skin against those black men with their hands traveling all over her beautiful body. She is very delighted when they pull out their big black cocks. She admires and strokes them and wonders out loud how big they are. She says that her boyfriend doesn’t have a big cock. She passionately kisses the men and they take turns  on her on a sofa, thrusting their big black cocks all the way inside  her. It was just beautiful. The continuity that this scene brought to the first scene really added to the excitement. She had a taste of black man and couldn’t resist to have more.

Then I watched Keisha Grey’s first Blacked scene.

This time the scene started with an interview. While I generally liked scenes with a story more, Keisha’s sincere enjoyment and fun attitude made the scene really enjoyable. So, lack of a story line didn’t matter that much in the end. She was very beautiful girl. She tells interviewer that she is really into size and want’s to be with a black man. She says that being with a black man has been her fantasy for a long time but she has never experienced it in real life. When her partner walks in an they start kissing, the interviewer shuts his mouth and leaves the stage for them. She is visibly taken when she sees his cock saying it’s the biggest thing she has ever seen.

When her partner lays her on her back on the couch, she is worried that it wont fit. However, being a gentleman, he slowly eases himself inside her and in no time his cock goes all the way inside her. The sex was just  as hot as in the previous scenes I had watched so I didn’t really miss  the story after all.

Then I started watching Katerina Kay’s scene. Katerina was beautiful slim, fun loving blonde in a pretty blue dress.

Like the previous scene with Keisha, this started also with an interview. Katerina told the interviewer that she is really into big cocks and always enjoys having sex with someone with a really big dick. When her partner walks in and she sees his cock it doesn’t disappoint her.

It was quite clear that she meant what she said in her interview. She clearly enjoys having sex with her partner and it looked amazing when she crossed her legs around his back.

After that I watched Skylar Green’s scene. She was a beautiful, fair skinned slim blonde girl. When the scene stars we see her doing stretches on a yoga mat showing her beautiful body.

After the brief intro, she is sitting on the sofa and the interviewer asks her questions. She says that ever since she hooked up with two black athletes she has had a jungle fever. She says she loves black men and black cock and she loves when a muscular black man carries her around. Soon her partner comes in and they start kissing each other. Her partner undresses her and asks to suck his cock. She kneels before him and does as he asks. Soon she is carried to the sofa and her partner fucks her giving her orgasms that cause her shake. As she trembled in orgasm, so did I.

Then I clicked play on Natasha White’s scene. She played the role of a ballet student enrolled into a prestigious academy.

The academy has a strict “no boys on campus”-policy but her boyfriend sneaks in anyway. Natasha is shocked when he shows up and says he cannot be there but he keeps begging her to give him a blowjob or a handjob. She says no, and tells her to get out. Her teacher, an older black guy, interrupts their quarrel and reminds her of the school’s policies. Natasha tries to convince him that she didn’t ask him to come but her teacher says that he needs to call her  parents because she has broken the rules. However, Natasha offers to  make it up for him and starts rubbing his crotch in front of her shocked boyfriend. He objects but Natasha’s teacher tells him to take a hike and they start kissing.

Soon she is sucking his massive cock and despite its huge size and her small stature she handles it like a champ.

Time went by and I was like hypnotized. I just kept  watching and watching. At this point I  had been watching Blacked for about 5 hours, almost all released  scenes. I was quivering jelly lying on my bed. I don’t know how many times I had came. My bed was littered with tissues. Clock was about  4 a.m and I had to go to school the next morning. Sensible thing would have been  to stop and get some sleep but I had to watch Jillian Janson’s second  scene once more and rub one out before going to sleep.

Next day at school was pretty hard. I was half asleep from not sleeping more than a couple of hours. At the same time I was counting minutes to get back home to my laptop. I was hard all the time as I thought that once I get home I have all night time to watch Blacked again. When school  was finished for the day, instead of going out to the city to hang out with my friends as usual, I quickly took the bus home and ran from the bus stop  to my place. I grabbed a paper towel roll (I remembered to take it right  away, I was already getting good at this) threw away my clothes and  went to bed with my laptop. It was around 5pm and I shut the lid of my  computer around 11pm so it was a quite nice and long interracial porn  marathon again!

Following days and weeks followed the same pattern. I Went to school, saw friends and during evenings I watched Blacked and masturbated. I watched it more and more. Feverishly waiting for new  scenes and watching my favorites again. The scenes were raunchy and erotic at the same time. Production quality was stellar. It was amazing how much it had an effect on me. I really enjoyed that they focused on women’s pleasure. Unlike in some earlier interracial porn, women didn’t look like they were scared or in pain and wanted to be anywhere else. They were genuinely enjoying and aroused. I felt that Blacked portrayed women in charge of their own  sexuality and having sex with men they wanted to have sex with. Many scenes  involved a plot where the girl had a white boyfriend who couldn’t  satisfy her properly but her black lover could provide her what she  needed. For some reason this excited me. I couldn’t really grasp why but  it did. It didn’t make any sense. Why would I get aroused thinking that black men could satisfy white women better than white men? I couldn’t help but think that the same thing applied to myself. That I would be a disappointment to girls.

That after having enough of my disappointing performance the girl I had been seeing would get herself a black lover who could satisfy her.