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"Ignorance is bliss", or so they say, and I could not agree more.

Faint memories come back to me, the smell of street food, buzzing of busy people and vehicles, excitement on everyone's faces, not a care in the world for what will happen next. I remember staring at my own reflection, wearing my Filipiniana together with my Sablay on the day of my graduation. I was impatient to become a degree holder, work in a big company, climb the corporate ladder, buy my own house and car, build my own family. I miss my 16-year-old self, that mini heart attack you get when you bump into your crush in the hallway, the eyebags under your eyes for all-nighters, the surprise quizzes, is-this-even-taught exams, noisy and fun classmates, professors walking out, college dramas. Aaahhh, youth. Now I am working for more than 4 years (and still counting, gonna pay bills til I die), waking up, doing menial routine work and the unavoidable stress that comes with it, paying bills, paying more bills above those bills, toxic people in the industry and the government. Oh my, now I believe that all of us will be happier if we were stupider.

For the first time ever, I convinced myself to unfollow your accounts. Not because I hate you, not because you irritate me most of the time, and definitely not because you easily get on my nerves. Yeah, you are all that, but no, I unfollowed you simply because I don't want negativity in my life. I no longer entertain the idea that this will pass soon and we will be okay. This is me giving up. Everybody can attest that I tried to be there for you (being "there for you" is the understatement of the century, God knows how I reaaaallly tried). Yet somehow, you can manage to pull anybody around you down, and I don't want to be included. I refuse to be on the down low with you. NO. How juvenile, you might think, but if being free of you means I am, then I am one happy child! One less toxic friend person in my life. Ciao!