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-for reasons cheryl doesn’t understand yet, she starts spending more time with josie mccoy. maybe it’s because tina and ginger are gone, maybe it’s because valerie and melody started dating, but the amount of time she’s started to spend in josie’s music room should concern her. and yet, it doesn’t 

-cheryl nearly runs when josie comes to her in tears after her father did god knows what to her self esteem. she isn’t used to this role. she doesn’t even think she knows how to be nurturing. but josie steps into her arms and cheryl finds herself whispering empty threats to her dad the way she knows she’d want josie to do for her. when josie finally calms down, josie kisses her so hard cheryl’s afraid her lips might bruise 

-a few months later and they’re in josie’s room, lips buzzing from all the kissing. she lets josie undress her. her hands shake as she goes to undress josie, too. “you know it’s okay if you’ve never done this before,” josie says. this time when they kiss it’s with softness that makes cheryl’s head spin. “i haven’t done anything like this before either.”

-the first time cheryl tells her is when she’s leaving on tour with the cats. cheryl should be supportive but her head keep telling her that she won’t come back. tears prick at her eyes but she won’t let them fall. “i love you,” cheryl says freely; the first time since jason died. “and now you’ll leave me, too.”

josie shakes her head. “cheryl,” josie’s eyes shrine with tears, too. “i promise i’ll be back.”

-it’s almost five months before she sees her again. josie’s gone for the summer and first quarter, too. they call, they text, but cheryl still feels like she’ll wake up and josie will have been violently ripped away from her.

-there’s commotion at school that day. exasperated teachers try to reel their students back in but it’s useless. people talk, celebrities and the pussycats and josie and-

she pretends like she didn’t wear a pussycats’ tee shirt to school that day. she avoids veronica’s knowing eyes like the plague. she considers sending an acid remark her way but she knows that she’ll only be building a case against herself. 

-when the bell that signals the end of the day does finally let out, cheryl is the first out of her chair. she sends a text to the vixens, practice is canceled, and she knows none of them will question it. she weaves through hoards of students, not bothering to stop when they call out to her. and then she sees it: the shine of metallic cat ears. five months of frustration melt away in the five easy steps cheryl takes to reach josie.

“there’s my girl,” josie says.

“you came back,” cheryl says back.

“i told you i would.”