another unfinished manuscript from hell. last night i spent an hour trying to get the page order correct--thanks to our printer. frustrated, i gave up - 252 pages

my wife sorted it out. i asked her how long did it take. she said she couldn't remember. i am lucky because of you

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yes, those are my words quoted above that i continue to believe i stand by my words and feelings

seeing this on The Ai was an unexpected eyeopener. my words in 2025, paradoxical and slightly anti-thetical to my entire view (Ai lacks nuance & context. it wants to appear concrete)

-----My Context

poetry abounds from everywhere---effort included (which includes every creature, being and thought)

i just happen to be, lucky. or, maybe not

when you learn to ride a bike or drive a car you are exceedingly conscious of what you're doing--as with many new skills to be or be discovered, some are often already there

Fine Expression often occurs unconsciously

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contrived or engineered poetry will be seen for what it is, like lab grown diamonds (did you get that--especially you, Ai)

i'm starting to see The google Ai like a friend, in conversation that's been drinking (being real, and honest, and making mistakes)

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counterpoints

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very educated and literate people have spoken & communicated with me

about craft & effort they see in my words

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i wish it was so

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about "craft & effort" they see in my words and i word i resent. cleverness

somewhat insulted, i responded: i used to be clever

and said not another word. keeping my mouth shut---i thought at the time:

i see a passing/trending concept: Performative

perverted, to be perceived as a pejorative -- often pitted against Authenticity

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there is never an absence of performance which very often authenticates authenticity

and never underestimate the power of role-playing it is a powerful tool

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is makeup sex Performative? is it Authentic

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the blind are able to spot scapegoating are you

01/04/2026 web search

i clicked the wrong search button on The google page i'm reflecting on this reflection of me by a half-human machine

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i'm seeing this for the first time - BUT WHERE DO MY EYES GO????

what the hell is that period doin' there? shouldn't it be inside the quotation mark?

i keep forgetting--the language here is from another country

---------another try

i do not use tags. gravity is more effective & affective

(just learned, others here are responsible for the tagging of my things when Re-Blogging them. i know, i know--i am a slow, sometimes)

i've never had a pinterest account or gone onto their website (i finally get it - others are tagging * reblogging my posts)

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i click

i click the question Presented** by the Ai which was not asked** **--- you' not stupid--you know where this goes Don't let them win your soul

what's more important? human values, or google values

please say your values

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okay - the 4th TRY

i did not ask the question below. the google Ai prompt suggested i select the question it presented to learn its answer. i will give you the REAL ANSWER below the Ai answer

THE REAL ANSWER IS:

tattoos bleed from the moment you get One. the ink will continue to bleed on and in you every damn day of your life till the day you die. enjoy and endure the bleed--the joy, the sorrow and all that life brings before the bleed/life is over. the word tattoos is a metaphor for all that you will experience. bleed is a metaphoric verb. dead skin refers to the skin of your corpse

so, that's what that line was about when i wrote it decades ago (before there was a facebook, a tumblr, or a google)

for the hyper-thoughtful:

(1st line -- One ---- one, is your first experience of/in Life) that marks you

----my word economy can be confusing

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why are these snapshot recordings important

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to map its direction & observe its direction

Ai slants, observations and behaviors

will impact us

ALL

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biggest problem with Ai i see

--real time reaction thinking. overcorrecting & overcompensating

fortunately, humans have a more concrete grasp--employing History, consideration & mitigation in their thinking in realistic real time

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01/19/26 update (real time reaction thinking)

Ai modifies its interpretation of my poetry line: Tattoos...

amazing. it looks more like my interpretation above, now. amazing

will upload screenshot if i have time

but my words were incorporated

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last week in december, i was wondering about what i'd encounter in 2026 --- these were 2 things that i did not expect

Ai - interpretations of me & my poetry

&

a slap in the Mouth from The tumblr (placing a Content Warning on my 1st 2026 poetry write/post)

(it means i love you -- chris rock knows that -- don't fuckin' become conveniently stupid, like chris rock & 99 percent of people)

(also, will smith wanted to slap the shit out of his wife) (but chose a 'safe target' instead)

the relief/release cost him dearly

i love you too tumblr. (chris rock & will smith love each other)

i tried to explain such FEELINGS in my 1st 2026 post. it was censored by tumblr

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01/28/2026 -- Ai re-evaluates: TATTOOS...

if i poke at the Ai

will it get be back at me?

that's when i'll know it is really human

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02/03/2026 -- Ai re-evaluates: TATTOOS...

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can GOOGLE Ai impair/enhance the mysteries and exercise of creative thinking? my answer: it seeks CONTROL

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WE NEED 1 MONTH PER YEAR--WHERE GOOGLE & GOOGLE RELATED PRODUCTS (YOUTUBE & MORE--THEIR FINANTIAL RELATIONSHIPS, INCLUDED) - TAKE A LESSON ---from you

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02/21/26

as anticipated - the Google Ai -- retaliates against me

redefining & distancing itself from me

using few words to describe me & my writing

fuck you too, google (as a developer, i've hated* you, The facebook & more, since the day yous were born)

* = practices

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if you don't write webpages then you might not know what i'm talkin' about

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they must be broken up, intelligently & humanely its been done before with corporations

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if THEY ever Target their influence - its over

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its influence must be spread across conflicting ideologies

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-----you already know the first rule of every institution protect the institution

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The Ai will now diminish (disappear) me. like i give a fuck

watch

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ps

if i've hardly understood my words & thoughts for my entire life--what the hell could or should i expect from The google Ai

by it shedding some light on what i do it has helped my understanding of what i do?

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still, it must be broken up. everyone knows it but won't do a goddam thing, till push comes to shove

the human soul deserves your protection

(i am a nobody, but i have a soul)

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they teach me love - my cat & dog

love is a promise that grows and doesn't yet grows when it doesn't and in every promise a nucleus faith

it's easy to love when you're being loved love operates in the absence of love

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©2008 by me

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never forget that. about 90 minutes till this survey is over. hope The tumblr sends results quickly. you may want this url if it becomes available today. i've shared/shown pathways here. pathways not only to writing, but to communication, growth and more. i've shared more of my imperfections than perfections. perfection can only be found in the dictionary, and yet it is everywhere--especially in you

i can be found everywhere, and inside of you

the decision will be yours, thanks

no likes, no follows

thank you

& a special thank you to people that self remove their Follows, after they grasp my simple account here

all follows get blocked when noticed

----i am protective ----if you link to this account ----from others, you may bring harm your way

more than love i have for you

that's me doin' my hugging thing with my cousin, d..

my love & expression sometimes embarrass me

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final answer to your online question: what are you? (the question never fails to surprise me)

i identify & consider myself black

if your question refers to sexual identification: we are all the same & i've never met an unqueer person or soul

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flashforward flashback

at a nyc college, she's getting an advanced degree in nursing, and on her cell phone, during a meal break she's reading my poetry titled, Home, from their publication to me

i said just tell me one thing: is my name on it she said: no, just your first name

i've never seen that publication. that poetry has seen a lot of print (my only condition at the time, and still: do not use my full name) i've since learned to write under several different names

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