Like Sugar

watch it go, like a firework it's too bright to see right where all the wrongs would lurk just a little debris

Frank Turner - “I Am Disappeared”

I keep having dreams of pioneers & pirate ships & Bob Dylan. Of people wrapped up tight in the things that will kill them. Of being trapped in a lift plunging straight to the bottom. Of open seas & ways of life we’ve forgotten I keep having dreams.

Amy worked in a bar in Exeter, I went back to her house & I slept beside her. She woke up screaming in the middle of the night, terrified of her own insides. Dreams of pirate ships & Patty Hearst. Breaking through a life over-rehearsed. She can’t remember which came first: The house, the home, or the terrible thirst. She keeps having dreams.

And on the worst days when it feels like life weighs ten thousand tons. She’s got her cowboy boots & car keys on the bedstand so she can always run. She can get up, shower & in half an hour she’ll be gone.

I keep having dreams of things I need to do & waking up but not following through. But it feels like I haven’t slept at all when I wake to a silence & she’s facing the wall. Posters of Dylan & of Hemingway. An antique compass for a sailor’s escape. She says you just can’t live this way & I close my eyes & I never say. I’m still having dreams.

And on the worst days when it feels like life weighs ten thousand tons. I sleep with my passport, one eye on the back door, so I can always run. I can get up, shower & in half an hour, I’ll be gone.

Weezer – Pacific Daydream (2017)

Change has an inverse relationship with happiness. You'll overdose on too much, but you need to take your medicine. Cold turkey is the same as taking the whole bottle. Life is on a continuum, so you're lucky if you find a regiment that suits you. I guess the goal is incremental and unnoticeable, but you need hope for it to be cut down. Also, correlation doesn't equal causation, so there are no solid arguments. You either take your medicine or you don't bitch when you wither. I may never be the high status character in any situation other than a witticism battle, but I think if you settled down, you could catch your breath.  

Favorite Songs:

“Mexican Fender”

“Weekend Woman”

“QB Blitz”

“Get Right”

Willie Nelson - Last Man Standing (2018)

The reciprocity in the balance of life fuels this album. From the lead guitar playing with the vocals to our relationship with the whole. I think we don't acknowledge reality over the controlled factions we put in to the world because a: no one would have anything to write about and b: we have less control, and that has scared people off cliffs. Truth is truth regardless of presence or age. How we tell those truths are the difference between Radiohead and Savage Garden. The masks we wear define us, even though there are people underneath. When truth is there, you can feel it, like the heartbeat of humanity. Those are the things that can rise, but don't always. What we want never matches up with what we are served, like a fast food menu. It's sexier. It plays to our senses. You can say it's bad or good, but regardless, it's part of the whole. It's not a rule, but even if it was, there are always exceptions. In any case, something needs to be sung.

Favorite Songs:

“Last Man Standing”

“Something You Get Through”

“Heaven Is Closed”