「 ✩ * º ╳ 」sunshower

daydreams are relaxing, it's the getting snapped out of them that isn't. but yes, i've been there. i think because i read so often it's easy for me to just mentally visualize things in my imagination. it happened to me more often as a teenager, but my mom did not put up with it either. though it can be difficult to stay focused on someone talking about something that you're clearly not interested in.

relaxing is the perfect way to put it. it's like drifting off before sleeping, but still awake. i swear, sometimes i feel more energized daydreaming rather than a nap. really, she should know better than talking about it. kidding, kidding. usually, i'm up to listening to her. even when it's about something i'm not particularly fond of.

i am a glass half full kind of gal. i have to be positive about life, otherwise it's nothing but disappointment after disappointment. tell me about it. i think the older i get the more i realize my social battery needs to be charged more often than it used to be.

well, isn't expecting disappointment a tactic to not be disappointed as well? wasn't that a quote in spiderman or something? oh well, i like your method better anyway. being negative can be pretty draining. i feel like i always needed time to recharge, especially if i'm in some project.

Okay, but what's the wildest daydream you've ever had? And have you ever been so mad at someone for interrupting you mid-daydream because you were just getting to a really great part?

honestly, my daydreams are pretty bleak. but they're crazy vivid. it's like i'm in a multiverse or some shit, living some other life. it's like.. just relaxing, y'know? so i'm always pissed when it's inturrupted, like, hello, i'm at my spa day.

Who needs scientific data? The look of disappoint from mums is nothing to be messed with. I always feel like a child again when I get one of those. Best to avoid it as much as possible, honestly. You know what reality show really interest me and how the people get cast? Married at First Sight. I don't think I could ever do something like that.

it's the scolding of a lifetime. i swear, i'd think it wouldn't phase me after so many years. and yet, here i am. weak to the gaze. i crumble each time. that is a great point. interesting concept. i don't think i could do, i'd be way too stressed out just thinking about it.

It works almost half of the time. But don’t over use that excuse they’ll catch on. Just pretend that I’ve zoned out and be all like what what did you say oh I’m sorry. It’s funny. Seeing the reaction you get. You’re right man sometimes I just don’t listen no matter how much I’ll care about a person.

i think it's a fair assumption to say that sometimes you can't always be in a listening mood. and sometimes i'm not in a talking mood. sometimes all that's needed is staring into oblivion, is that so wrong? i think not.

Oh man, happens all the time, and it always depends on how boring the conversation is. If someone is just going on and on about the most boring subject, then I'm off daydreaming about my next meal or what movie I'm going to watch next. Big brother as in the show or the sibling? What were you daydreaming about?

boring is a harsh word, but i'd be lying if i said it wasn't a component. but to be fair, i have the attention span of a goldfish. it's gotten real bad, if i'm honest. i totally get that, just thinking a couple steps ahead. i call that being prepared. big brother as in the show -- but i think you discovered what would be the worse topic.

Haven’t we all done this one time or another. It’s worse when you do it on a date. Was your mom mad about it? Did you completely ignore her, as she was talking or was that just something that you didn’t feel like listening to? I highly would not want to listen to that either. Don’t get me wrong those reality shows some are good but big brother is a little annoying.

i do think it's only human to stop paying attention at least every once and a while. and there's definitely some risk depending on who's on the other side. i will say, daydreaming on a date probably isn't the best if signs. i don't think she was genuinely mad. gave one of those eye rolls and then a laugh. it was an internal scolding for sure, but i think i'll be forgiven. it wasn't intentional i basically just dozed off with my eyes open.

queued in the middle of conversation? i've never heard it worded quite so perfectly, my guy. it's that sinking feeling when you hear your name and when you look up everyone's looking at you waiting for an answer. i feel like it's less daydreaming for me and more just the brain vacating the premises for a second. or minute. did you ever get the updates on big brother? or is your mom holding a grudge? i'm on the edge of my seat here.

ah, don't get me started on dissociation. sometimes my brain just taps out on its surroundings. i don't think she was actually bad, but she gave me an eye roll and i am not caught up on the latest scandal. so i think i really lucked out. maybe my ears will be blessed with not hearing of any updates until she gets really excited about something. and then i have my chance for a redemption arc.

7 times out of 20 is a very random statistic to use, my guy. Where did you get those numbers from? Was it a good time in the land you attended? That's what matters most. No one can blame you. I didn't even know that was still showing. How are people still agreeing to do it?

claim it to be random all you want, but it's probably accurate. not backed up with scientific data, but i'm a pretty good guesser if i do say so myself. it was a pretty good time till i snapped out of it and was met with a look of disappointment. i should be used to that by now. kidding, kidding. it wasn't all that dramatic. oh, it's beyond me. just seems like some weird fighting in a really nice mansion. would be interesting to watch the producers to a psychoanalysis on those they cast though.

big brother as in the show? i didn't realize it was still ongoing. what a massive throwback. i'm on the same boat. i distract easily and zone out without even attempting to. i'm also known for rambling about senseless things. truly, communicating with me can be a task at times. i'm working on it.

i'm pretty convinced that show is never-ending. i don't know whether to be impressed or disturbed by that fact. isn't it just a bunch of drama in a mansion? i don't get it. ah, i'm sure your rambles are about something a little more interesting.

your poor mum. she was probably so excited to share it with someone and now she can't even trust her own son in listening anymore. just kidding. sort of. it happens to the best of us, mate. sometimes your mind just starts thinking about things and then you're gone. was it such a good daydream then?

she must be heartbroken, truly. any trust she had, was totally gone. i tried to make up for it and say i was simply daydreaming about a homemade meal from her. she didn't buy it. while i know that was a lie, i don't actually recall the daydream. probably more interesting than reality television, but that's just a guess.

Moms have that radar, don't they? Even when we're lost in our thoughts, they somehow sense it. Do you think she'll eventually forgive you? Maybe if you start showing more interest for her Big Brother updates. But yeah, it's happened to me, and more often than I'd like to admit because I love to evade myself from reality and sometimes it's just necessary. I get lost in my thoughts, imagining various scenarios or planning things out, and suddenly, someone yelling or calling my name breaks that immersion. It's like a sudden jolt back to reality, making me realize I've been completely zoned out.

i'm pretty certain moms are just wizards in disguise.. it's a theory i'm working on. i don't have solid proof, but i'm getting there. eh, i don't think she was actually mad. probably just slightly annoyed. i think she probably noticed i wasn't listening like, ten minutes before it actually happened and just wanted to rag on me a little. a humbling experience, really. i'm not gonna lie, the snapping out of it is the worst feeling. i feel like my heart skips, like, at least three beats.

that's understandable. i think anyone who knows you will also understand that about you. when you do the job that we do where we have to talk to so many people on a regular, daily basis, your social battery tends to drain a lot quicker. it's easy to find yourself getting lost in those moments where you start to space out.

i'm guessing you're a glass-half-full type of person -- i dig it. i try to be. in this case, i definitely think you're right. pretty sure people are used to it by now and just tease me about the trait. it's not to be around people that get it and let me charge without the pressure of, y'know, having to socialize like a normal human.

Isn’t that the worse sometimes? Right and for me it happens when I’m already deep in my own thoughts as it is… it isn’t that it’s done on purpose but the mind works in different ways; sometimes it’ll tune out certain things or tune out what someone is trying to say to me because I am thinking about something else that has zero to do with the topic at hand. I apologize so much after that fact is said and done.

i do get a case of the sorries. i feel like i'm always caught like a deer in headlights and it's like -- oh shit, i'm supposed to say something now, aren't i? was it a question i missed? sometimes i try to play it off, but i end up just exposing myself.

it's a whole other world, isn't it? can't always control the mind. that's a lot of work. y'know, i call drifting off into daydreams being my authentic self and they should be blessed that i feel so comfortable to... not listen to them. a daydream come true? can't say i have. guess i've had, like, deja vu moments, but i'm no psychic. do you have a story to tell with that one?

If something doesn’t sound interesting that’s exactly what I would do too. Not that the person itself is boring but the conversation itself. Many times I’ll find it’s easier to have my head stuck in the clouds than listen to someone talk my ear off about nonsense. Not that I’d tell them that so I do not make them feel bad.

yeah, i totally get that. i think it's fine to let them ramble. some people like to just talk.. but others may be ... speaking so much about stupid shit and then expecting a response back and that, is where i lack my support.

Sometimes I get in the moments where I’m talking with a friend and they’re just rambling on about mostly nothing or things I’d already know and I get very annoyed so I pretend I’m not listening. And when they yell at me I play dumb as if I don’t know what I was doing it’s a very clever tactic.

that... is pretty genius. hearing repeat stories can be quite a headache. some people just like to talk, which i don't really blame. or even mind. and especially when i care about the person, i wanna listen. but also. sometimes it's just nonsense spewing from their mouth and it's best to just tune out.