hi, it's nira

Ay nako self bakit ka nanaman ba naiiyak???

First day back in the unit today after being on what felt like months of being off (although I had a few days of working here and there in between) and it was okay, wasn't too bad. Would have loved to get out earlier. I made it out around 17:30 while other day shift staff leave around half an hour earlier 😩

And I come home.

M's in a meeting, but he's making dinner at the same time. I had to deal with the ASDA delivery on my own, which to be fair kaya naman I don't know why I'm being so whiny. He's still in the meeting so I deal with trousers I had to return, showered, and blow dried my hair.

I come back out to the kitchen, he's finishing up a call with his mum so I put headphones on and started watching vlogs. Turns out he finished, and needed to go to the pharmacy to pick up tablets. Dinner was still cooking. But he had to head out. So I finished off dinner, which literally was just take pasta out of the water when the timer went off. I helped myself to a plate, and did part of the washing up, and put more vlogs on. He helped himself to a plate when he came back, then we watched one episode of Ted Lasso. Then I had to finish off the washing up and said goodnight.

In the next 10 minutes, I find myself crying on the bed, not even sure why but I kept crying on and off for the next 10 minutes. Then I decided I wanted Vicks on my chest because girl, masakit ha dughan. Vicks was outside in the dining room though, and M was watching The Mandalorian on the sofa. As I was passing him on the way back to the bedroom, he opened his arms and it was cuddle time on the sofa. I was still silently crying. Stayed there for a while, then decided it was time to come back to the bedroom.

He came in shortly after I had, and it was just tears and cuddles and supportive and warm words from him. I'm so grateful for this man. I pray I get out of this emotional-mental chaos. I'm tired of crying, man.

I'm sorry this post started out as one thing and ended as another. Tampo tampo sana yun, tapos naging grateful for this man. Lol, sino ka dyan sis?

Today was my first day back at work after being on annual leave. It was a study day (late start. early finish hehe yay) and it was a simulation. And it was the whole nine yards – a simulation room, a control room where the facilitators were, and an observation room where the rest of the participants are.

It was a generally okay day, except for when it was our group's turn in the sim room. I felt like I was doing my OSCE again.

Made it home by 4pm-ish. I went and bought pork for adobo and went straight to cooking when I got in, and it was *chef's kiss*

M isn't home yet, he's staying late at work as they have an inspection tomorrow, bless him. And he'll be going in earlier than usual tomorrow as well. He'll be out all weekend, playing YGO (big event) and he'll be in Wales all week next week for a work trip.

I can't believe I'm having little sepanx feels right now. 'Di ako 'to huhu. I'll be working most days anyway but that's a lot of days he isn't here and parang hindi ako prepared??? Sino ka dyan sis lol I've been venting to mum today about this hahaha she was like "how about you, no time for you?" and I'm just like "I KNOW RIGHT MAMA"

Hi 👋

The COVID pandemic has been and gone, I've had months of little to no actual work (ah, I miss that life) but didn't actually update on here. I was caught up on Tiktok for a while. lol what a time that was.

I think I stopped liking Tumblr's aesthetic.

But I kind of miss typing out my thoughts. Also some of these thoughts I'd prefer weren't on Twitter, or Instagram (most especially not on Facebook, ew)

Ganaps around the Tacloban Fiesta 

PH 2019 Vlogs Part 2

— meeting up with more friends, checking out the performances in the city, going to Dreamland 2019 ✨

30th June, 2019 📍 Whereelse KTV, Astrodome, Tacloban City

30th June, 2019

29th June, 2019 📍 Dreamland ✨

Part 2; you didn’t think that was all that was, did you?

29th June, 2019 📍 Dreamland ✨

We had dinner at The One (at nag pre-game char), and then... Enough said, I guess? 😅

29th June, 2019 📍 Pedro Modern Filipino Restaurant

So the family was actually invited to a relative’s house for lunch today for the fiesta downtown, but the traffic wouldn’t let us though, plus most of the main roads were closed early for the Parade of Lights.

28th June, 2019

C2 day ♡

Loren & I met up in Infinitea (bcos I was craving their golden dragon mt, and when I actually got it, it didn’t taste as good??? Like either they changed the recipe slightly or I built up the expectation in my head, and the reality just didn’t live up to it??? Idk) and Giana & Shean joined us. Then we went for dinner at Milagrina, where Bess joined us. Then we had a night cap at Bo’s  ♡

27th June, 2019 RTR Plaza, Tacloban 

We were supposed to be in Balyuan for December Avenue, but the amount of people just in line to get in(!!!!), di namin kinaya siz. So we settled for watching people we didn’t know in RTR Plaza 😅 We still had fun, so the night was okay, haha!

SURPRISED THE FAM!!!

PH 2019 Vlogs Part 1

— basically from the flight from Heathrow, to arriving in Manila, brunch with high school friends, arriving in Tacloban, surprising the family, and meeting a few friends ❤️️

25th June, 2019 📍 Macao Imperial Tea, Rob Marasbaras

24th June, 2019 📍 Ocho Seafood & Grill, Tacloban

We weren’t supposed to be having dinner. Milk tea an saragbot. Ambot na gud man paano kami nahidangat ha Ocho 😂 But actually we decided on Lushan, but Lushan was full, and the closest alternative was Ocho, okay. 

Yes naman, scallops againnnnn 🤤

23rd June, 2019 📍 Seafood & Ribs Warehouse, Palo

22nd June, 2019 📍 Tacloban City

Finally in Tac!!! 🧡

Lolo & Tita Arlene got me from the airport - lolo didn’t know that I was coming basically, but tita just had to tell him otherwise he wasn’t going in the airport car park he said 😅 They brought me to Sunny Ville and the rest of the fam were surprised, lol. Probs took LA an hour to talk to me, haha! More on the vlog, go watch, hehe.

I went to Keannah’s (Poy’s sister) 18th birthday party too, then joined C2Loves in Skye (no pics also, idek, but there’s footage on the vlog!!!)

22nd June, 2019

So I arrived in NAIA last night – Coleen came to pick me up from the airport (after a long day of being a doctor) ♡ We went to MOA for dinner, and omg ang init sa Pilipinas??? Char, hahaha. Pero ang init talaga, siz. Kahit may aircon, mainit pa rin 🔥 We didn’t take any pics because we were both haggard na. But there is some footage in the vlog, hehe. She dropped me off at Kyra’s place too huhu thank you Cols! Thank you also, Kyra for letting me stay at yours (even though I thought you were going to be there hahahahaha!!!)

Anywayyy, the next morning, Raiko, Kyra & I had plans for brunch. The plan was early morning but became later in the morning but we did push through, haha!