alright. i said i was gonna check in so i guess i will. hello void! that's me! very much alive in the year 2020. 2020 me would absolutely fucking destroy 2017 me in any battle of wills . 2020 edition is a student of personhood! this year lapsed into a handful of familiar nightmares and i am fine. i am profoundly in love and i think that's the way i was supposed to be all along. it feels important. im diligent about making art because it's what i do and i accept (embrace!) the act of creation as a function. functionality is a low bar, but, given my piss-poor record of achieving it, doing so feels a little miraculous. by the way! clean, sober, ect. one year off h today! i have plans now! i didn't have plans then. 'not there' doesn't feel so much like the best thing i can be. feels good
