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Sometimes (this is really sometimes), i dont like how people see me. Because of the mentioned expectations. But I guess I dont have to explain myself to anyone, and I just better be myself. 😆

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I read the prompt once and I thought it was telling me to write about what kind of adventures I have in my sleeping dreams... but apparently it's asking me to write about the kind of adventure I want to have. . I like mystery. So I kinda want to be on something like that show, Amazing Race, but without too much pressure. 😛 I imagine I'd be pumped to solve some mystery while travelling. . Other than that maybe also travelling while getting to know the history or the mythical stories of the place. More mumbo jumbo, the better 🤣🤣. . In my sleeping dreams I get SO MANY flying adventures. I still can remember vividly about the dreams I had flying and kickass inside my dreams like some superheroines ❤. . What about you? . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #aspiringwriter #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMrSmziHjD0/?igshid=81uq06372gfc

"Ugh Monday" indeed. I usually still have weekend vibes with me and it's hard to like wake up in the morning. 😂 . My kid needs to prepare for school (online) early in the morning. My husband also needs to go to work early so usually I'd be making his coffee in a big tumblr, and nags everyone to HUSTLE 🥲. . Can't shower til later that day. After my kid's english course after lunch. . Always busy with something like the dishes or laundry because on the weekend I dodged all of those. . YEA more or less, dreading all day long. 😪 . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #aspiringwriter #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMrRlHOHMEA/?igshid=imj3juk5eceg

I swear no matter how weird this prompt is, I'm sticking to it til the end of this month. Haha. . What am I usually doing around 3pm? Funny you should ask! . My daughter plays all day long inside the house and around that time is where I NAG she and her friend to keep it down 🤣. They're screaming a lot. I mean, just like imagine a house with 2 5 yearolds. And I'm sensitive to loud stuff. It stresses me out. . Second probability, i'm doing a zoom class 2 days in a week. But when that happens i'd be doing the nagging and the class all at once. This is pretty intense 😂😂. . On the weekend I'll be pretty chill because I usually be bingewatching some movies. This weekend i'd be watching Zack Snyder's Justice League 😝. . #writingprompt #writingprompts #journaling #writerstagram #writerstagram #aspiringwriter #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMmj8pJHLUi/?igshid=1f7ht25p3qnhr

I have two actually. Two recipes that i'll cherish forever. . First one is my dad's omelette. They're made with like 2 eggs beaten together with fried onions and tomatoes and a bit salt. But I swear I can never make one that tastes just the way my father made them. Even if I follow his EXACT protocol. I don't even know why. And I haven't taste this omelette since FOREVER. Maybe I should make them. Haha. This brings so much memories 😄. . Second one is this traditional kinda-like-beef-stew dish from my mother-in-law's home that I only make and eat during Eid el Fitr. My husband won't eat them unless it's Eid. This one is new but has a special place in my heart. 😋 . #writingprompts #writingprompt #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #journaling #aspiringwriter #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMj-M0pnvau/?igshid=y7a6tpuvlkt5

As a child, I have a very active imagination 😅. I remember feeling super vibing with heroines! Yes. Somehow the feminist seed is sowed way back when 😂. . I liked female power rangers, i like Kim Possible, i like Carmen Sandiego, i like female spies... have you noticed a pattern? 🤣🤣. . I don't know where these rooted from. But it really affected who I am now. It drove me to be a rebel those years when my parents got divorced and my dad got remarried. I was bullied by my step mom, and I fought back. . Growing up, I noticed that heroes come in shapes and sizes. But since we're talking specifically about childhood heroes, then that's all I can share today 😛. . I'm here if you wanna share 🙂 . #nilakancana #journaling #writingprompt #writingprompts #writerstagram #writersofinstagram https://www.instagram.com/p/CMg9INSHdZO/?igshid=b14grhfq0fxh

EXCUSE: Yesterday was a crazy day for me. Because it was covid vaccine day. I swear the queue was so long I spent two hours on the drive through! . So....... yeaaaaa i'm gonna do another double post today 😂. . Lately there's so much rain in my area. From light shower to heavy storm! And my feelings about rain never changed: i love it when it rains. . Rain gives a calming vibe to the ambience. Not to mention the petrichor ❤🥰. . I think food tastes better when it rains. Haha. Especially the warm, broth-y kind. Sleep feels better when it rains. Personally, even sex feels better when it rains. 😏. . Rain brings out the mellow flow. But it's probably because I'm an introverted homebody, ya know. So how about you? 😏 . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMgMQIwHB2g/?igshid=12bj5ufi0hjma

HA! I'm not about to forget again so, yea. I'm posting this RIGHT NOOWWW 😛. . I have a best friend that I've known more than half of my life. And we know each other back to back. . We're both introverts. So we're both homebodyyyy. We like sleepovers where we can talk about EEEVVVEERYTHINGGGGGGG, seriously. Like, everything everything. . We hate crowds haha. We never go to concerts together or something. Because like crowds scare us. Back then, DVD marathon is definitely it for us. . I'm so grateful that the friendship last til now. Now that we have our own family, we don't get to hang out as often. But I sincerely hope this last forever 😆. . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMa-Fw2HYHM/?igshid=dalr2yzxmd9t

Can't believe I forgot to post this yesterday. Anyway. Let's do this. . I don't really have a good relationship with my grandparent. Out of four, I only know 3, and that last one isn't dead either. I don't know him because of his conscious choice iykwim 🤣🤣. . The closest one is probably my grandma from my mother side. She took care of me since I was a baby. And still, i'm not really that close with her because when my mother left, she left too. . From my father side, we were never really close. They have conflicts with my mom, and it hugely affected my relationship with them. . So yeah definitely have complicated relationship with my grandparents. Although I've found my peace in this. As in like, I'm totally fine with these relationship knots and not gonna do extra effort to fix them 😂. . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMa8UEmHmCs/?igshid=p1askyle2vgg

Interesting how the prompt is seemingly matches the way I feel 😏. . So yessss, there's something that's weighing on me a little bit right now. . A year ago I made a promise to a dear one. That I would take care of something. This past year I've been keeping that promise. And several weeks ago, there's been a changing plan. . In a way I'm still keeping that promise, but you can say that this thing is a bit "controversial". . I don't care what people thinks. I'm just nervous about the reaction of a particular person. . But then again I see no other way to this. So I'm still gonna do it with this dragging me and hope that everything is gonna be okay. . Wish me luck. . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMV0WOfn92v/?igshid=12ozcdcgqnjov

One of the person I admire the most is my husband. . Of course I won't tell who he is. But let's just say you believe everything I say. . He's a CEO of a company. He's goal-oriented but he can be selfless. Everything he does, he does it for the big picture and not his personal gain. . He hates corruption. And he's always avoiding shady projects with shady transactions. He's got unshaken integrity. . But he's not all work and no play. He's efficient so when it's time to play, then it's time to play :). When he works, well, there's no stopping him. . He's also one of the reason why I made this pseudonym. 😂 . #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana #husband https://www.instagram.com/p/CMUyIUaHWDo/?igshid=a3bwvu15wwgj

From all the friendships i've been through in my life, there's one friendship that I JUST know is for life. . I and my best friend knew each other because we used to be neighbors. We learned each other's names when we were in third grade, and we've been sharing everything since. So our friendship is still going strong since 1998. . 🤨 oh wow that's a long time. . We never went to the same school, but we never lost contact. Some school friends drifted and grew apart, but not us. . Now she's happily married and has 2 beautiful children. I am, too, married and have a kid. And still she's the only person I can share everything with. This friendship is probably the one I value the most ❤. And I hope our friendship last forever til jannah. . #friendship #writerstagram #writersofinstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #journaling #nilakancana https://www.instagram.com/p/CMR5ZDGHETx/?igshid=1qoyhriotfuy3

I remember I was SUPER awkward. I didn’t talk to people much. I didn’t pay attention to my friends. I didn’t know my classmates' names until like several years later. If it weren’t because my teacher shouting their names every day before the class started, I wouldn’t care. I didn’t like boys because they were usually noisy. I don’t like how they’re saying bad words and thinking it was cool. . Unless this one guy that I liked. He had a puppy-love girlfriend but I didn’t care at all and I liked him anyway. 😂😂 . I didn’t care about any other subject except English until I was in junior high school. I always excels in English and I love going to my English course after school. I’m seemingly never good at math, but I think it’s because I learned it wrong. I came to like several math problems later in years, but again failed to understand calculus. Maybe I’m just language kind of girl. . I remember I always liked writing. Indonesian language class is always fun. If I were told to make a short story or essay, I always loved the process cause it’s always easy. I had hand-written books where I had written all my short stories and all my friends would read it. I had active imagination. I might or might not had told my friends I had a time machine in my house 🙃. . I didn’t care about how I look, the care came many years later after primary school LOL. I didn’t know why I didn’t identify myself as beautiful. I just didn’t realize that beauty comes in all shapes and sizes. . I’ve grown so much since those years, but to look back is such a delight. All that awkwardness is just a proof that I’m a hundred percent an introverted kid, and I am totally okay. . #writerstagram #writingprompts #writingprompt #writersofinstagram #journaling #nilakancana #awkward #memory #beauty https://www.instagram.com/p/CMOblm5HJWN/?igshid=1mlikjfg8xpms