That's Just Life

I like to express myself through music. I don’t possibly think there is another way to show someone how I feel. Like I’ve said before and like I’ll say again, words fail. There’s this song right now. It’s called Johnny run away. I’m really connecting to it right now. And not the way it’s meant to be. The song is about being gay I think. I’m gay or maybe I’m pansexual now I guess. My partner is non-binary so does that make me pansexual? I don’t know. I just am me I guess. Well anyways. I think it’s about running away from that lifestyle because it’s too hard. Hard to deal with all the people in life that are going to give you shit about it. I could’ve connected to it at some point in my life but not now. But the chorus of the song. He is running away. And that’s about all I’m fixated on. I get stuck. Stuck on a sound. Stuck on a lyric. It repeats. It’s almost obsessive. And all I hear in my mind is, “Johnny runaway runaway now Johnny. You get picked on another better run for cover”. I hear it repeat in my head all day except I put my name on there. Runaway runaway. Better go and run for cover. That’s all I hear. Because I just want to runaway. Runaway from it all. Runaway from life, from anything, from myself. I don’t want that destination. I don’t want the ending. I just want the journey. The journey to run. To escape. To find that release. I yearn for peace. But until then, I’m going to keep running.

[A white fortune cookie paper with blue text reading: The stars appear every night in the sky. All is well. Lucky Numbers 10, 16, 18, 27, 30, 32]

Riceball somehow managed to sneak in and take a nap.