nikhilistic

I don’t talk about this enough but I want Ango and Dazai as real friends again so bad. I want them to hug and cry. I want them to visit Oda’s grave together. I want Dazai to sneak into government buildings to bother Ango at work. I want Dazai to inconvenience Ango by calling him to “consult” on every other case he has and have Ango secretly happy about it. After everything they’ve been through, I want them to be besties.

sometimes you remember that dazai knew ango was a traitor from the moment ango showed them his bag. he asked for those pictures knowing they would likely never meet up with this same simpleness ever again. dazai asked ango if he really needed to leave so soon, knowing their friendship was at its end. and then you just have to live with that apparently ?

Sakaguchi Ango, the “lack of identity from having to constantly keep check of what he’s doing and who he’s spying on and how to keep from forming attachments” motherfcker, the “betrayed the only people who could’ve truly loved him because they met in these brief lapses inbetween their inevitable fates where they could truly just relax and be with each other” bitch, the “stuck with the ability to relive memories so he is both drowning in other people’s histories further alienating him from himself but he also has to relive having to cut out the only true thing he’s ever had” piece of shit, the “Still cares for Dazai and Oda, years down the line, still helps Dazai and the ADA using a Port Mafia communication technique even though Dazai nearly killed him because Ango knows the bomb was planted because of his role and its a violent action done out of Dazai losing someone he loved because sometimes violence is the only love they can share, and yet they both loved Oda so much he knows that helping Dazai and the ADA would be what Oda would’ve truly wanted” trashbag, the–

Just letting you know that Preorders were extended till tomorrow 4th! ✨️