Hi there! The name’s Nyles. (26 | they/them, it/its)
I write stories and RP now and then (Semi-selective); sometimes I even post art. Who’d’ve thunk. (Follows from @nihilistic-body.)
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Content Warning: My blog will often contain depictions of violence, blood, dark themes, possibly suggestive content and just generally terrible things. By no means do I condone it, as this is fiction.
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rotating some ideas around for Filghe. ship dynamics (romantic or otherwise)
So far I've got:
Experienced model x diamond in the rough (she's the rough. Considering her upbringing)
Cutesy high femme x soft butch/some guy she'd go feral for ("some guy" can also be 'her little weirdo' or some asshole)
Prized bird in a gilded cage (kind of in one like this already, if you consider her relationship with Garnet lol. But who's to say there can't be different flavors)
Not The Best For Each Other, But By God We're Trying And We're Better Now Than Before And Apart (horribly broken person x horribly broken person and somehow. they both wanna do right by each other despite it all)
Seemingly Clueless Mob Princess (which. She kinda is) x Poor Pathetic Soul who caught her eye
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I have a couple different universes that my non-fandom ocs play around in. Two of them are fantasies: one is a middling dark fantasy (Astraeon) and the other is an epic fantasy with sci-fi incorporations (Eos).
Aside from this is a far-flung future sci-fi I have, (Golgotha) where humans have long since left Earth, after having united then split into factions again. They've encountered numerous other species. Some weird stuff happens here and there that isn't quite explainable, but it's chalked up to highly advanced technology from other species, for the most part. Things are not usually very pretty and there's a touch of deep space eldritch terror present in its theming.
And then I play with Bast in one of his fantasy settings with a bunch of vampires. Lol
Miko: what's a little extortion between newfound friends. (<- not her friend) (<- knows full well her moirail would be extremely disappointed in her, which is why he'll never find out about it)
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=> Not like the owner mattered at all by this point for other reasons. You withdraw the photo when she's clearly not going to take it to look at for whatever reason. They hadn't invented photographs that could bite people... yet.
"i╪ doesn'╪ /\/\ove on i╪s own, don'╪ be ridiculous."
"Bu╪ i╪ does see/\/\ ╪o /\/\ake whoever holds i╪ u╪╪erly /\/\anic when i╪'s li╪."
"Or... /\/\aybe ╪he guy was jus╪ like ╪ha╪. I haven'╪ exac╪ly been able ╪o s╪udy i╪."
"Bu╪ ╪he hea╪ i╪ was pu╪╪ing ou╪ was blis╪ering while he wasn'╪ swea╪ing a drop. ╪ha╪'s no╪ usually considered 'a good sign of nor/\/\alcy'."
=> You sigh heavily. You didn't think it likely you'd be able to track it down yourself, but it would have made a nice change of pace from your normal desk work.
"Well do you know anywhere local ╪ha╪ /\/\igh╪ have i╪? I've ╪ried checking an╪ique s╪ores and pawn shops bu╪ haven'╪ found shi╪."
"Assu/\/\ing you're local and no╪ jus╪ a passing-by underbridge inhabi╪an╪."
=> Things moving on their own is ridiculous now? It's not really that hard of a thing to pull off.
"okay, yeah. that'ss weird, I guessss."
=> There could be many explanations for that kind of behavior- mundane, or otherwise. You have to pretend, though, that you think a lantern 'possessing' people is implausible at the least. Mostly because why would someone make an item like that? Seems kind of pointless.
"but that begss the quesstion of why you want it."
=> You stop yourself there and close your eyes briefly, also sighing.
"actually. i don't really care. none 'f my bussinessss."
"you're gonna want to narrow down your ssearch ssomehow, though. you're in the largesst city of the region- there'ss like a million little sshopss here and there that ssell all kindss of odditiess."
=> You cross your arms, looking up in thought. Guess you could help a little with that, given you at least know your way around... about half of the city well enough.
=> You can eliminate the shops up in Gracehail. There's probably not shit up there for an antique like this, given the general clientele. Dolwen Heights is well out of the question too. There's nothing that really comes to mind up there.
=> Something like this- especially something dangerous, is more likely to be passed around elsewhere. People who'll take just about anything that walks through the door, so long as they think they can profit off of it.
=> There's a few places down here in Alimede- where you happen to be now- that fit the bill.
"i mean. yeah, i live here. there'ss probably a few placess you haven't checked out yet that might have it. they're antique sstoress of a kind."
"not like you would have found either on your own, though."
=> You turn your attention back to the guy in front of you.
".... i guessss I could show you. maybe. i'm not ssure i remember where they are."
=> Which is to say, while you so love doing things and giving information out of the goodness of your heart, you could use a little incentive. You don't trust him, given you have no idea who he is. He could be a P.I., or a cop, tracking down something that got stolen.
=> Looks can be deceiving- you of all people know that. But, he did say he could pay if you did end up finding it. So, surely there'd be no problem with this, right? It seems like important business to him.
=> Doesn't hurt to try for some kind of assurance. Worst that happens for you, is he walks off and leaves you be.
(The following entry has been translated from an unknown language.)
Entry #216
Some time has passed since I took on this job of trying to aid those two in their curse. And while I have gleaned a fair bit of it, I still feel lacking in the base knowledge to fully treat the root of the problem.
If it were merely a wound, or even a creep nestled in the self, it would have been easier to take care of. But this is something else, unfortunately. A marring of this type is not going to part as easily as I would have hoped.
Since this discovery, I have turned my attention back to studies of the composition of the soul to try and find a better option than excision and regeneration. My descendant has aided somewhat in my understanding on this manner, as their perspective is somewhat different from mine.
I have taken great care not to repeat past mistakes, and have been putting my own soul on the line for study- which, as an aside, has been very helpful in the understanding of my own magic. (Even though I have more questions now than I did before. Alas, something I will have to look into later.)
But I digress.
I have found I can generally split the composition of a soul into three main components.
There is anima, as I call it. Commonly referred to by others as a "will to live", or life force. It is the energy that effuses every living thing, allowing it to move and grow. It appears to dictate lifespan, and there is some correlation to the amount of it present within a person to the power output they're capable of- either with psionics, or magic. Though, I have not had much opportunity to study this point- so I could be wrong.
However, I do know that as you age, your anima tends to deplete itself. Which makes sense- as a fire burns its fuel to keep alive, so too, does one's soul. Which releases its energy back into the closed system that is life.
The second part, I simply call the self. It is the spark given to every living creature- a seed of possibility. Of change. The growth of which is determined by many external factors. One's genetics, for example, or their environment. The others they met, the events that took place in their lifetime. Potentially a gift (or curse, depending on how one sees it) from the being formed at the very start of the universe. Regardless, the self is what veritably makes a living thing unique.
The third component, arguably could be rendered as exactly the same as the self. But I separate it, as it seems to be separable from the other two components. And that, is memory.
It would seem that memories are carried in three places of a living thing- its mind, its soul, and its body and muscles therein. Though, all of these containers appear to be imperfect and prone to flaws. They are prone to forgetfulness in varying degrees- though the mind and body seem capable of remembering- even through the loss of the soul.
Meanwhile. The soul must constantly be maintained by something- usually the body and mind- lest it lead to decay. An example of this includes shades, lost souls that is, which appear to be souls who have lost either most or all of their memory (as well as a significant amount of their anima.)
If the soul's memory is prone to this decay, it stands to reckon that it may be influenced by a new or different vessel. For example, a possession. No wonder it's easy for a demon or the like to access the memories of an individual this way. However, a less powerful ghost or spirit may have to suppress this vessel's memory, if there is any.
What would happen if they failed in this endeavor? Or if the transition wasn't perfect?
I suppose it would be no different from what happened with Caliro. A loss of one's sense of self, a loss of the memories their soul contained. Or, should the body carry existing memory, one would have to wonder if its memories would mingle with the new resident's.
A rather unsettling thought. Maybe worth studying- perhaps there's someone living this fear already.
i can't express how absolutely important it is that when you make an edgy, brooding, badass character who's tough as nails and good at fighting and whatever, you HAVE to give them at least one reason to become completely helpless and pathetic. you have a panic attack quota to fulfill.
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my "hot take" (read: room temp take) on quads is that well. They're all romantic. That's kind of the point
People seem to mostly be on the same page re: moirails being an important partner who's just as close as a pitch or flush interest would be. Arguably closer, since that's your light, your world. Your confidant. Perhaps silly rabbit.
An auspistice mediator is just as involved in a relationship- normally, anyway. There's a lot of nuance in any relation of course, and maybe someone would be interested in a completely neutral third-party rather than a closer mediator. But still, that's romantic involvement. They're not any less of a part of an ashen quad.
"Yes, I like ╪o blind people. I╪'s ac╪ually a hobby of /\/\ine. Clearly."
=> You don't go wandering anywhere without a source of light anymore for good reason.
"I didn'╪ lose shi╪, I'/\/\ jus╪ looking for so/\/\e╪hing. ╪hough╪ i╪ /\/\igh╪ have been around here and fell in╪o ╪he da/\/\n wa╪er."
"Hopefully i╪ didn'╪. I'/\/\ no╪ going for a swi/\/\ ╪onigh╪."
=> You pass the light over the canal again, wincing. It had better not have fallen into the water at some point. You let the light dangle from your wrist again as you dig through one of your pockets, pulling out a mildly wrinkled photograph.
=> You amble towards her, offering it.
"Seen any╪hing like ╪his? I╪'s i/\/\por╪an╪ I ge╪ i╪. If you have i╪, well, I can pay for i╪."
=> The photograph quality isn't very good, marred by motion blur and bad lighting. What can be made out is a rectangular, lantern looking object, the glass on it somewhat dusty. The casing around it is silver and marked with green etchings that don't seem to resemble any actual letters. The flame inside is currently lit, and is clearly being carried by someone, but the photograph is too zoomed in to see who it is or what the background is.
=> The longer the photograph is looked at, the more it looks like the flame inside the lantern is dancing.
=> You elect not to take the photo, not really willing to just. Grab things, handed to you. But you do take a look at it from where you are, quiet for a moment as you study it.
"....."
"nope. never sseen that before in my life. but it sseemss fancy sso I guessss I can ssee why you'd want it."
=> Fancy, sure- and something clearly of import to someone with the way it looks. Reminds you of some stuff historic stuff you've seen. Like, of the occult.
"though. it alsso sseeemss like thiss thing has ssome nasty vibess to it. i wouldn't dissbelieve that it'ss dangerouss."
"but the way you're talking about it makess it ssound like it can move on itss own."
=> Weird. You wonder what he could be, looking for something like that. If that's the case. Not that you're feeling particularly obligated to help, but...
"... i have to ssay, bud, thiss iss one of the worsst photoss of a target i've ever sseen. you might want to get a new photographer. or camera."
=> If he was the one taking it, that is. You're also just bitter about getting startled and the light shone in your eyes, still.
